Well the title kind of explains it all, I would just like to find out if anyone is in the same situation as me and I would like to understand if this is normal or not.
This is going to be a long one, firstly I was brought up in an environment where my parents had a difference of opinion on a child's upbringing, my father was understanding and his outlook was if he's old enough to ask a question I'll try and answer it best I can, my mother on the other hand was hush hush about any questions I had because I wasn't old enough or I wouldn't understand because I was only a child, their was a split in the upbringing and alot of disagreements, this undoubtedly led to my parents breaking up at the age of 14.
So I lived with my father, skipped two years of school because I didn't like what was going on around me and then went straight into college (UK college). After going into college, I found myself to be more open and be myself more, but I couldn't keep that up, I tried bonding with my mother but my father got annoyed with the fact I was trying to see her more, and my mother got annoyed that I was living with my father, so this ultimately just made me anxious around anyone and everyone, and I still do to this day, I feel like no one likes me because of the way I am, I don't think I'm myself anymore.
All my acquaintances (not friends) think I'm weird because I ain't lost my V yet, I don't mean to be big headed but I do look alright and I'm not overweight, I workout everyday etc. Every time there is an opportunity I seem to freeze and try to avoid the situation completely, maybe this has something to do with the ONE girl friend in my life that cheated on me within a week of dating her, who knows. I suppose this thread is just a rant, but still I would like to know if this is normal and if this can be resolved in anyway, does get you down a little bit when you think in the near future after everyone's gone that you cared about you're going to be socially inept for the rest of your life unless you can do something to change.
Sorry for talking so much, just need to rant.
This is going to be a long one, firstly I was brought up in an environment where my parents had a difference of opinion on a child's upbringing, my father was understanding and his outlook was if he's old enough to ask a question I'll try and answer it best I can, my mother on the other hand was hush hush about any questions I had because I wasn't old enough or I wouldn't understand because I was only a child, their was a split in the upbringing and alot of disagreements, this undoubtedly led to my parents breaking up at the age of 14.
So I lived with my father, skipped two years of school because I didn't like what was going on around me and then went straight into college (UK college). After going into college, I found myself to be more open and be myself more, but I couldn't keep that up, I tried bonding with my mother but my father got annoyed with the fact I was trying to see her more, and my mother got annoyed that I was living with my father, so this ultimately just made me anxious around anyone and everyone, and I still do to this day, I feel like no one likes me because of the way I am, I don't think I'm myself anymore.
All my acquaintances (not friends) think I'm weird because I ain't lost my V yet, I don't mean to be big headed but I do look alright and I'm not overweight, I workout everyday etc. Every time there is an opportunity I seem to freeze and try to avoid the situation completely, maybe this has something to do with the ONE girl friend in my life that cheated on me within a week of dating her, who knows. I suppose this thread is just a rant, but still I would like to know if this is normal and if this can be resolved in anyway, does get you down a little bit when you think in the near future after everyone's gone that you cared about you're going to be socially inept for the rest of your life unless you can do something to change.
Sorry for talking so much, just need to rant.
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