Sometimes I hate people

[Falkor]

Hi,

So I always escape from school if I have lunch around 12
I go cycling in the park around here and sit alone. [it's a really relaxed scenery over there, love it)
A few teenagers walked up to me, and were acting like silly kids in the playgarden. They said to me '' Oh she's sitting all alone'' with those laughing evil mouths. After it they said ''Nice lunch isn't it'' I was really pissed and frustrated by these comments and actions. I felt pissed off at them and am suprised how rude people can be, especially from my age.

I don't understand what's up with them, if they knew what I'm going through, or if they would stand in my shoes, they would totally see what it is like.
But sadly so many people don't understand my feelings.

I am the outsider of the class, they've asked me to stand with them, yet I still want to go cycling in the park because it creates peace for me, it makes me feel relaxed from anxiety a little, but still when I go back to school it's terrifying me, it's a hell, people keep on throwing words at me, it happens on a daily basis. I have an insecure body language, I can't just fix this by snapping my fingers, mostly old people look at me with a smile and more adults like 20's, some people just have the fun of playing with someone rudely.

I'm glad my class is not bullying me.. That's a good point

So yeah, I just wanted to share..

Greetz

 

[Nanita]

God that´s awful Some people are extremely rude.

The other morning, I managed to go to school, where I haven´t been for a month because of illness. I was very very nervous about coming there after so much absence. As we all sit down, waiting for the teacher to begin, a woman I don´t know sarcastically says to me "wow do you look fresh today" (meaning I looked very tired). This comment made me feel hurt. I realize that this woman do not know how sensitive I am, that I have been ill for a long time (and that I´m still ill), and that I hadn´t slept at ALL the night before, because of anxiety. I realize that most poeple mean no harm when they make some comment. (Except for the teenagers that spoke to you in the park, obviously they meant harm)
I can´t handle being around people who make comments like that. It makes me too sad and nervous.

And I totally understand that you prefer going to the park than staying at school when you have a break. I would do the same.

 

[schist]

Adolescents, as a whole, don't understand free-thinkers, or anyone differing from the established norm.

 

[Thelema]

Why don't you eat with the people that invited you? It would feel weird at first, but it would be good for you.

I used to walk around the school at lunch time. I hated it.

 

[Falkor]

God that´s awful Some people are extremely rude.

The other morning, I managed to go to school, where I haven´t been for a month because of illness. I was very very nervous about coming there after so much absence. As we all sit down, waiting for the teacher to begin, a woman I don´t know sarcastically says to me "wow do you look fresh today" (meaning I looked very tired). This comment made me feel hurt. I realize that this woman do not know how sensitive I am, that I have been ill for a long time (and that I´m still ill), and that I hadn´t slept at ALL the night before, because of anxiety. I realize that most poeple mean no harm when they make some comment. (Except for the teenagers that spoke to you in the park, obviously they meant harm)
I can´t handle being around people who make comments like that. It makes me too sad and nervous.

And I totally understand that you prefer going to the park than staying at school when you have a break. I would do the same.

Hey Nan, I'm sorry to hear about your illness It must be a long road of fighting for you, I hope you will feel better soon! It sucks that the woman said that to you, I can exactly understand that you are sensetive, cuz I'm too.. Any rudeness can affect me a lot.. That's why I hate 'some' people, with those kind of intentions.

I never understood bullying, Nor I do now. I just don't know what is fun about teasing people, just a joke yeah it's funny, but for real? :-/ that is harsh.

Thanks for your reply nanita

 

[Falkor]

Why don't you eat with the people that invited you? It would feel weird at first, but it would be good for you.

I used to walk around the school at lunch time. I hated it.

Hi Thelema,
Well, in the beginning they asked me sometimes.. But now they don't .
So I feel anxious to stand with them, I mean.. I'm always away and sudden I'm there.. Yeah I make this big point, but it's really new to me.

Although one guy starts talking to me in the hallway, cuz we're always the first two people waiting for class.
He just told me the break is way too long, he's bored and wants to study, i like his attitude. :]

I'm not that social, I do know how to be social sometimes though, I know how to start a conversation tho it seems like I have no clue, I do... I know how to be open and talkactive, only at places I feel comfortable and at ease. I just have no gutts to talk to people and make friends.
I'm terrified of rejection and I feel uncomfortable around people, so it's even more awkwardness.... Because of the full canteen. Yeah crowds scare me.

At the same time I would love to face em, cuz I want to be singing on stage again.. Someday

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Hey Nan, I'm sorry to hear about your illness It must be a long road of fighting for you, I hope you will feel better soon! It sucks that the woman said that to you, I can exactly understand that you are sensetive, cuz I'm too.. Any rudeness can affect me a lot.. That's why I hate 'some' people, with those kind of intentions.

I never understood bullying, Nor I do now. I just don't know what is fun about teasing people, just a joke yeah it's funny, but for real? :-/ that is harsh.

Thanks for your reply nanita

Eh, it's usually just because they need a charge of power by putting others down to bring themselves up; that charge blocks out the pain of their insecurities. That, or they're just jacka**es. Usually, the best thing to do is to ignore them or verbally tear them to shreds. Sorry for being subject to the idiocy of the human race, Saskia and Nanita. Just wipe the event from your memory and go on about your business. They're not worthy of your thinking time.

Well, Saskia, if crowds scare you and you want to make friends, then try to find others who, like you, sit by themselves. You'll be able to relate to them and you won't be so nervous. Or you can try joining a club on campus; in there, people will approach you, taking the pressure off of you. Just take a deep breath and relax because, fortunately, most people aren't jacka**es. Take it easy, you two!

 

[Apersonalan]

Yeah I did the exact same thing as mentioned when all my friends left high school I would always skip lunch to avoid hanging with people and I would always get paranoid about people looking my way but it wasn't really their fault I was just too paranoid and realized later sometimes I would just see things that weren't there. I guess the big thing is that people do a lot in their day so they really don't care and just don't mean things like we think they do which sucks because it's all we have to think about but just knowing that is enough for me to let it slide.

 

[MaliceInWickedland]

I'm really sorry that you had to go through that ::

Schist pretty much hit the nail on the head. Most teens in general love to bask in their douchebaggery and step all over others who are different in any way. I was also an outcast in high school (I've pretty much been an outcast throughout my entire school life) and there wasn't a single day where people didn't remind me of that aspect. I used to do the same as you. Find an isolated but peaceful place to have time to myself during lunch and get away from the madness that is the teenage wasteland.

I think you should continue doing that and just ignore people to the best of your ability. Hell, feel free to laugh at them right in their faces next time they do something like that. They don't know you so who the hell are they to judge you? They may think they're the bellybutton of the world now, but in a few years they'll probably be sitting alone too. Not in a beautiful park with relaxing scenery but a dark, ugly alleyway, drinking a hundred cans of beer to wash away their troubles. I know that's a rather bleak outlook on things but it's the truth. Most people like that usually don't get very far in life after high school, so I'd say that's their just desserts for treating you so terribly.

 

[Illusions]

Eh, it's usually just because they need a charge of power by putting others down to bring themselves up; that charge blocks out the pain of their insecurities. That, or they're just jacka**es. Usually, the best thing to do is to ignore them or verbally tear them to shreds. Sorry for being subject to the idiocy of the human race, Saskia and Nanita. Just wipe the event from your memory and go on about your business. They're not worthy of your thinking time.

Well, Saskia, if crowds scare you and you want to make friends, then try to find others who, like you, sit by themselves. You'll be able to relate to them and you won't be so nervous. Or you can try joining a club on campus; in there, people will approach you, taking the pressure off of you. Just take a deep breath and relax because, fortunately, most people aren't jacka**es. Take it easy, you two!

^ This, pretty much. People just suck sometimes. Sorry you had to go through that, Saskia, but I think the best thing to do is forget about it.

 

[Ashiene]

^Hi there long time no see.