somebody help meh

[lonelee1]

i have repetitive thoughts about being worthless and not comparing to others and where they are in life. i just had a bout of major depression and am on buspar for anxiety. i am also obsessive compulsive and had a bout with that for about 2 years. i think i've always had it though. i also have social anxiety and therefore,,very little people to actually speak to. i have friends but mostly only talk to them using technology. i get shy even around family members. i don't know when i am ever myself really and what i am without all these 'issues'. i don't know how to start my life again. when i get low, i lay down and the world seems worse. but then i get up and i feel better and tell myself that my thoughts aren't accurate, but distorted from all this. then the thoughts return. i sound like a crybaby but i'm sure you guys know how i feel. never had a bf either and i'm 27. thanks for letting me vent. you don't have to say anything. i just realized i gotta suck it up.

lord,

 

[Saga]

-hugs- ._. I know how you feel. I experience pretty much the exact same things as you do. Therefore, I can't offer much advice, but in an attempt to help I'll tell you a couple of things I've started to do. I've began to alter my thought patterns. Just, every time you have one of those thoughts about being worthless, or too shy or anything like that, just listen to it, and then tell yourself it's the anxiety speaking. It's not true and it's not who you are. I've also started to try to just smile at people and just generally look more relaxed. It does make you feel better and look more approachable too, even if you aren't feeling so great. Good luck. c;

 

[MikeyC]

Just keep pushing on. Your thoughts are definitely irrational, and at least you can notice that, but the fact that they keep returning is not good. Maybe some therapeutic help will be beneficial for you, so you can control those thoughts and not spiral into depression so often.

Hang in there.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

Wow, we have a lot in common! I have SA, depression and OCD. It's the depression that eats up most of my life. I fall into this negative self talk pattern, become depressed and by the time I snap out of it, a couple to a few years have gone by.

My problem is I just don't care enough about myself to try. Once in a while, I'll put in an epic effort, but that's rare. I think I'm just running out the clock. Hoping a meteor hits me or something.

27 and never had a boyfriend...Well, you're very attractive! Once you decide that you're ready, that will change-fast!

 

[lonelee1]

-hugs- ._. I know how you feel. I experience pretty much the exact same things as you do. Therefore, I can't offer much advice, but in an attempt to help I'll tell you a couple of things I've started to do. I've began to alter my thought patterns. Just, every time you have one of those thoughts about being worthless, or too shy or anything like that, just listen to it, and then tell yourself it's the anxiety speaking. It's not true and it's not who you are. I've also started to try to just smile at people and just generally look more relaxed. It does make you feel better and look more approachable too, even if you aren't feeling so great. Good luck. c;

thank you for the reply. i wish this would end, but it's good to recognize the work has to come from ourselves. and we're better ppl for that. thanks for the luck, to you as well

 

[Xervello]

Yeah, you're not alone, ll1. A lot of us are going through the very same thing. Best thing to do is to embrace that this is who you are, whether you like it or not. The thing is, other people feel comfortable around you if they think you're comfortable with yourself. Even if it's weird. They might not understand, and not all may be nice about it, but once you get a little bit of confidence in who you are, it can spill over into other positive things. At any rate, I wish you well. And welcome to the forum.

 

[lonelee1]

Just keep pushing on. Your thoughts are definitely irrational, and at least you can notice that, but the fact that they keep returning is not good. Maybe some therapeutic help will be beneficial for you, so you can control those thoughts and not spiral into depression so often.

Hang in there.

thank you sir. it's hard to tell whats real and what isn't sometimes. but we press forward.

 

[Lamb]

i have repetitive thoughts about being worthless and not comparing to others and where they are in life. i just had a bout of major depression and am on buspar for anxiety. i am also obsessive compulsive and had a bout with that for about 2 years. i think i've always had it though. i also have social anxiety and therefore,,very little people to actually speak to. i have friends but mostly only talk to them using technology. i get shy even around family members. i don't know when i am ever myself really and what i am without all these 'issues'. i don't know how to start my life again. when i get low, i lay down and the world seems worse. but then i get up and i feel better and tell myself that my thoughts aren't accurate, but distorted from all this. then the thoughts return. i sound like a crybaby but i'm sure you guys know how i feel. never had a bf either and i'm 27. thanks for letting me vent. you don't have to say anything. i just realized i gotta suck it up.

lord,

You can talk to us. I can very much relate. *hugs* Hope tomorrow is a little better for you.

 

[JohnnAY]

Hey Lonelee, I most certainly know that feeling all to well. Of course at our age, this is usually the time when we see our friends get married, have their first child, see their careers take off, etc... But that isn't always the case. You are certainly in a better position than most others to begin anew. Open a dialogue with your family, call your local college, whatever it is, little steps help you get there.

Having a boyfriend won't solve anything. Worry about priority #1 for now, which is taking care of yourself.

Be strong, you are not going to let this disorder define who you are.

 

[lonelee1]

Hey Lonelee, I most certainly know that feeling all to well. Of course at our age, this is usually the time when we see our friends get married, have their first child, see their careers take off, etc... But that isn't always the case. You are certainly in a better position than most others to begin anew. Open a dialogue with your family, call your local college, whatever it is, little steps help you get there.

Having a boyfriend won't solve anything. Worry about priority #1 for now, which is taking care of yourself.

Be strong, you are not going to let this disorder define who you are.

Hi, you're more than right. we should take care of ourselves first, and i think relationships won't necessarily solve anything, but it gets very lonely sometimes. i can start new and that is good to remember! thanks for the strength,

 

[Srijita52]

I agree with everyone else here lonelee, I know how it feels too and its tough dealing with such thoughts. Stay strong and don't let them get to you.