sahxox
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I've never taken drugs before, but everything I've read online and talked to people about when it comes to "bad trips" is scarily similar to my social anxiety at the very worst. Complete paranoia, imagining things, tense muscles, loss of control etc. :S I know one other person with 'social anxiety' and he says I'm doing alot better then him because I have in the past tackled it. But he has a sense of control over his emotional stability atleast, and I just achieve at things because I think it's what is expected.
The emotional and physical effects are disgusting. For the last month or so I've felt this everywhere, even at home. It seems any human being is a trigger, it's like they're always ****ysing everything I do and the whole world is concerned with me.
Most annoying part is that I am not always like this. The real me is someone I'm satisfied with, but for some reason I don't know how to access that, this state of confusion dominates. I can't be me and I hate myself for it.
The emotional and physical effects are disgusting. For the last month or so I've felt this everywhere, even at home. It seems any human being is a trigger, it's like they're always ****ysing everything I do and the whole world is concerned with me.
Most annoying part is that I am not always like this. The real me is someone I'm satisfied with, but for some reason I don't know how to access that, this state of confusion dominates. I can't be me and I hate myself for it.