I'm getting ****ing sick of asperger's syndrome. You go on the forums and most of these people are self-diagnosed and full of themselves. I've seen people who were bummed when their doctor revoked their diagnosis. They think a label alone makes them unique or different. They just don't value themselves.
All of a sudden people with exceptional abilities or gifted intelligence with deep "unusual" interests accompanying social ineptitude are labeled defective. Missing something. All that is needed is to ****ing learn. Take it from someone who's received anonymous emails from my college for autism conferences because I'm practically a mute in class.
These labels perpetuate the symptoms they describe. It's a dangerous slope. An excuse not to try changing. An excuse to give up, no matter how much you wish you could connect with others or how much you don't like making them so uncomfortable.
Reading up on the autism spectrum you'll find it reaches nearly the entire spectrum of humanity. Be weird, be quirky, whatever you do be your ****ing self.
Most autistics and aspergerians are in a place of cold comfort. Due to generally higher intelligence, they feel things more deeply, they remember pain more vividly, so change is scarier. Or maybe they're not intellectually stimulated enough by most people so they prefer isolation and therefore are socially behind. Maybe they're so insecure they put on a friendly, unassuming mask, all the while knowing exactly what's going on at all times, but not feeling what's going on.
I watched a film called Billy The Kid. The kid's about 14 in it, and was diagnosed with aspergers. You come to find out he had some trauma as a kid. He talks about feeling like he's at war with himself every day. In it he tries to get a girlfriend but it doesn't work out. He's not natural with any of it. Mother said he was tested as borderline genius btw. It also mentions his school's concern for his library rentals, which were a bunch of books on psychopathy. He feels like a monster, because hes always acting. So many of these kids just don't know how to be themselves. Hence why there is a lot of cross-diagnosing among anxiety disorders and the autism spectrum. Also, and this may be just me projecting myself onto the kid, because I can relate to nearly everything in that film, including a period of obsessive research on psychopathy and conscience, he seems gay.
Some common myths and loose statistics that interrelate:
Gay people are higher on the narcissism level.
Highly intelligent people are often full of themselves, narcissistic
Many psychopaths have high IQs, often in the genius range
Narcissism and psychopathy/sociopathy are very similar
All autistics are gay
Autistics are devoid of empathy
the term "autistic psychopathy" was used by Hans Asperger himself
etc. etc. etc.
Some of this sounds conspiracy-ish but there are bits of truth hidden within every crackpot theory. These are just some of my observations over the months.
This is not to say I completely denounce the whole area of psychology devoted to the spectrum. My point is there is SO MUCH BULL**** surrounding it all. It's hip.
Most of this post has come from my experiences with labeling myself, being labeled by others,making excuses for myself, getting others to make excuses for me, and hating myself (less and less though) for being gay. Take from it what you will. Rant over. It's almost 6am. I need to sleep.
One final note:
With a higher level of intelligence and creativity comes the enhanced ability to lie to yourself, and to others.
One more final thought regarding mathematical ability and the spectrum. Gifts in these areas can also be a crutch. Relying on logic, patterns, and rules for something as intense, random, and unpredictable as human soul does not often yield understanding. Soul cannot be analyzed, dissected, compartmentalized. You can only feel it.