Cruddy said:
Can anybody relate to any of this.....I will be out with people having a fairly good time and then people start doing and saying stuff that I find morally difficult to deal with then my night is ruined. Other people's behaviours can actually cause me to become really depressed and I have to go home. Of course I dont tell anyone because it sounds really lame.
Also, I've done this my whole adult life....I hate having to say goodbye to people when leaving a party, or social situation. Especially if its a group of people. Im not sure why but I just try to tell one person Im leaving and then quietly slip out the door. Sometimes people have later phoned me at home to find out where I disappeared to.
Sometimes when Im at a party I will disappear into a quiet room by myself and read a magazine, clean up beer bottles or do something away from the group. It weirds people out and they think Im not having fun but its my way of recharging.
I also find I have a maximum amount of time I can spend out with people. That time seems to betweeen 4-6 hours and then I become physically exhausted. People actually suck the energy out of me. Not because Im having a bad time...but its all the mental energy Im using to stay sane and not lose it while out in public. Its also having to deal with all the facades peole put up while out in public and I immediately see through them. I find that very tiring.
Can anyone relate to any of this?
I see people having the time of their lives on booze and without and so i'll panic and start thinking "shit, i'm being very non-entertaining" "just say something already" it becomes a massive freak out ...
You described it perfectly from my experiances too ...
If i say goodbye and there are alot of people then you feel obliged to say "bye" to everone in attendance which is pretty overwhelming if its a party with loads of people and you dont know many people right?! i think thats fairly normal so i'll just inform the people hosting the party and close friends if its too much ...
you took the words right out of my mouth in every aspect of your description, if i'm at a party after an hour so if i'm stuck by myself or i just can't enter discussion i'll find a room to hide in and if anyone comes in i'll pretend i'm texting someone on my mobile, although i'd rather just be honest and say i needed the alone time ...
i usually feel drained by the never-ending asteroids, missiles of comments beaming back and forth through me via conversations at parties that last all night, its so draining and often its difficult to escape it if your not on the ball ...