Reaching my boiling point

[fitftw]

So today I'm extra ****ing pissed that it's 6pm and I haven't ****ing gone anywhere. I sat and looked out the window for a ****ing HOUR trying to figure out where I could ****ing go and I came up with NOTHING.

I'm ready to ****ing kill someone.

I can't take this life anymore. Not having friends. Not having the ability to make decisions.

And when I get in these moods, people don't ****ing say anything to make it better. They always make it worse. "What crawled up your ass today?" "Who **** in your ****ing cereal this morning?"

**** that. Anyone know what the **** I'm saying?

Anyone else have a ****ing problem getting out of the house? Finding something to do that won't bore the ****ing **** out of you and make you question why you even went outside in the first ****ing place?

I've really had it. I really have. Something has to give. I don't know what the **** to do anymore.

Just don't give me a ****ing idea on where to go. Because I'm just going to derationalize the **** out of it like I do with everything else.

 

[Sial Axetder]

Have always felt content with not going anywhere. Doesn't mean have not felt what you feel.

I have no choice but to force relax or suffer train wreck in head. Clenched jaw, tense. Last one, the docs say, was a status migraine. Usually brought on by stress.

I apologize I can only offer: Relax, calm, then think.

 

[mrb]

i have to force myself to go out sometimes lately , but then im glad i did go out just to get out of the house ... like tonight watched a film at the pictures , and few hours ago walking along the beach on my own .... i hate going out on my own :: its boring eating out on your own , going to the pictures on my own , no wonder i talk to myself sometimes , just for someone to talk to

 

[fitftw]

thanks guys...I really do want to get out of the house...I will see a movie tonight I suppose.

 

[Sial Axetder]

thanks guys...I really do want to get out of the house...I will see a movie tonight I suppose.

Sounds like a good idea to me. Planning that for Sunday myself, though I haven't checked what's what yet.

 

[mrb]

dudes watch the last airbender in 3d gazza recomends , its a good film just watched it lol ...dont forget the popcorn

 

[userremoved]

I know how you feel too man, weekends are the worst. I mean there's things to do but I hate doing them by myself so I end up not going at all sometimes.

 

[Sial Axetder]

dudes watch the last airbender in 3d gazza recomends , its a good film just watched it lol ...dont forget the popcorn

M.Night.Shyama - what's his name. Suppose I'll have to check it out. I have a bit trouble with MNS films. Should have stuck with 6th sense. His new film, Devil, looks like it might okay.

 

[agoraphobickatie]

go see the expendables!! if i'm ever bored as fukk and need to get out but have nowhere to go, i usually just drive around and smoke and listen to music, lol.. most times though, i'm totally fine sitting at home and taking a nap or something =/ yeh, i'm that boring..

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

go see the expendables!! if i'm ever bored as fukk and need to get out but have nowhere to go, i usually just drive around and smoke and listen to music, lol.. most times though, i'm totally fine sitting at home and taking a nap or something =/ yeh, i'm that boring..

The therapeutic effects of simply driving around for the hell of it cannot be overstated.

 

[Ignace]

Tell me about it. At least u go to the gym sometimes, I've never been anywhere except my mum and my dad's since school's over. In 2 weeks it starts all over again.

 

[ShyArtist1981]

I feel this way a lot. I´ve gradually been losing interest in all my hobbies for the last couple years so there´s a lot of times I feel like I need to go out and do something but have no idea what. Then my usual fear of having to deal with people compounds my problem and I stay inside. Then I lose more interest in my hobbies and the cycle repeats until I become depressed.

Sometimes I start to get mad at myself and my lack of decisiveness and control over my life so I get self-destructive. I have done things to myself that left scares but usually I just drink until I pass out, that way I don´t have to deal with all the free time in the evenings or weekends and don´t end up with any external damage that other people could see. I don´t do this all the time though, only when I have nothing to look forward to, am very bored, or angry at myself.

I know your pain and you have my sympathy.

 

[fitftw]

The therapeutic effects of simply driving around for the hell of it cannot be overstated.

it can when driving gives you bad anxiety. I always feel like people are staring at me and judging me for the car I drive. I always hate the person driving in front of me. Going out for a drive when I'm pissed off is not the best thing in the world.

ShyArtist, you put it into much better words than I could...thank you. That's exactly what I'm talking about. It sucks man. At least I feel good knowing I at least have to visit Target today to pick up a case of water. That'll get me out of the house for 5 minutes...

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

it can when driving gives you bad anxiety. I always feel like people are staring at me and judging me for the car I drive. I always hate the person driving in front of me. Going out for a drive when I'm pissed off is not the best thing in the world.

I used to drive a car that tended to draw attention. While I liked the car, I didn't like or want the attention, so I changed to something much more anonymous and now I feel much more comfortable when I'm out driving. Even though I'm surrounded by windows, I never really feel that anyone is looking in at me, and I'm pretty focused on the actual driving anyway which is probably why it acts as a distraction from any anxiety I might be feeling.

 

[fitftw]

I should sell my car for something boring and vanilla...but I like having a nice car, I just don't like the jealous stares from people with less money and ****.

 

[Rufus]

Don't get something boring! There's nothing better than a nice car.

 

[Ignace]

I should sell my car for something boring and vanilla...but I like having a nice car, I just don't like the jealous stares from people with less money and ****.

It's your money, you do with it you want, there's nothing wrong with having a nice car. Sure, jealous people say you think you're better then other for driving a nice car, but .. that's just from jealousy. There are also a lot of people who admire you and your car. You have to drive a nice car because you want to, not because jealous people don't want you to.

 

[206Raider]

go see the expendables!! if i'm ever bored as fukk and need to get out but have nowhere to go, i usually just drive around and smoke and listen to music, lol.. most times though, i'm totally fine sitting at home and taking a nap or something =/ yeh, i'm that boring..

Goddamn this is me wrapped up in a shell. I'm love nothing more than riding around listening to my music, sometimes I get a laugh out of blasting my music and watch all the disgusted looks I get from people or they roll their windows up. I love to make em mad.

But other than that I'm trying to treat my depression, when I'm depressed I really have no interest to do anything but I get mad becuase I wish I was doing something. So I try to watch as many movies as possible or read a book. I've seen about every movie out, theater or bootleg. Gotta get it how you get it lol.