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hidwell

hidwell

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WeirdyMcGee said:
Midnight madness tomorrow at Ikea stores.
Up to 50% off.


...haha

uh... had a mental evaluation today.
Totally blanked because I was busy freaking out-- didn't mention panic/anxiety disorder, PTSD, OCD, BDD, crohns, celiac and a number of other things that were probably important to put into the tribunal report for disability.

Oh, well... if I don't make it, I'll just be homeless.
Not a big deal.

THEN I had bloodwork done and sent to the lab for my monthly check in.
THEN I fainted and slept for 7 hours.
Then I ate the last can of mushroom soup--- or... half of it.
Eventful day.
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I hope you get the outcome that you desire.;)
 
Lea

Lea

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I have yet to see a bigger idiot than is my father. I am fed up with his constant humiliations, he stole all my money I earned slaving abroad, does nothing in the house till is completely run down and yet has the nerve to tell me I will go to a madhouse because I am incapable. Because I appointed someone to repair the floor in the living room and said I´d pay for it. He thinks I should never spend anything, only hoard money for the "future" like himself whilst living in dirt and mess and inhuman conditions - because I am incapable and will starve in the future because of it. I´d have done house repairs already long ago but they didn´t allow me to do anything and besides I couldn´t stand living with them, so I spent the money for travels. Which is certainly a great help.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Lea said:
I have yet to see a bigger idiot than is my father. I am fed up with his constant humiliations, he stole all my money I earned slaving abroad, does nothing in the house till is completely run down and yet has the nerve to tell me I will go to a madhouse because I am incapable. Because I appointed someone to repair the floor in the living room and said I´d pay for it. He thinks I should never spend anything, only hoard money for the "future" like himself whilst living in dirt and mess and inhuman conditions - because I am incapable and will starve in the future because of it. I´d have done house repairs already long ago but they didn´t allow me to do anything and besides I couldn´t stand living with them, so I spent the money for travels. Which is certainly a great help.
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I'm sorry, I hope you don't let him get to you too much.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I'm well pissed off. :mad: Utterly fed with constant ritual humiliation by my family, especially my mother and older sisters. Sarcastic, patronising jokes at my expense because of my SA. Aye, because social anxiety is so f***in' funny, innit? Absolutely hysterical. NOT!! :mad: It's like being verbally and metaphorically kicked in the bollocks.

And I'm on the verge of snapping and telling them aw tae "F-U-C-K. Off!!" :mad:
 
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Nathália

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Graeme1988 said:
I'm well pissed off. :mad: Utterly fed with constant ritual humiliation by my family, especially my mother and older sisters. Sarcastic, patronising jokes at my expense because of my SA. Aye, because social anxiety is so f***in' funny, innit? Absolutely hysterical. NOT!! :mad: It's like being verbally and metaphorically kicked in the bollocks.

And I'm on the verge of snapping and telling them aw tae "F-U-C-K. Off!!" :mad:
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So sorry Graeme. If you ever want to talk about something you can always talk with me. Sorry you feel this way.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Graeme1988 said:
I'm well pissed off. :mad: Utterly fed with constant ritual humiliation by my family, especially my mother and older sisters. Sarcastic, patronising jokes at my expense because of my SA. Aye, because social anxiety is so f***in' funny, innit? Absolutely hysterical. NOT!! :mad: It's like being verbally and metaphorically kicked in the bollocks.

And I'm on the verge of snapping and telling them aw tae "F-U-C-K. Off!!" :mad:
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I'm so sorry Graeme. :(
 
Lea

Lea

Banned
I wish I was more intelligent and everything, like most others. I also miss knowledge and skills in so many things in life and don´t know where to get it.. If I continue the way I am it will be pretty miserable and inefficient.
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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Lea said:
I wish I was more intelligent and everything, like most others. I also miss knowledge and skills in so many things in life and don´t know where to get it.. If I continue the way I am it will be pretty miserable and inefficient.
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If you want to become smarter, then visit the local library or bookstore and read up:). The Internet is also a very powerful tool. If you can afford it, you could even go to a school for the practice you're seeking. But, really, experience is the best teacher for this. Learn, then do. I know you can do it Lea.
 
Lea

Lea

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DeadmanWalking said:
If you want to become smarter, then visit the local library or bookstore and read up:). The Internet is also a very powerful tool. If you can afford it, you could even go to a school for the practice you're seeking. But, really, experience is the best teacher for this. Learn, then do. I know you can do it Lea.
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I read a monton of books in my life, but i miss some practicality or what, i don´t know. I miss some structure and order in my life too, and social network.. multitasking skills.. knowing what to do and how to do it, which way to proceed, what to stick to.. I am searching for work now but it´s like a digging in a pile or manure (where else can I dig too).
 
shakethelight

shakethelight

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Graeme1988 said:
I'm well pissed off. :mad: Utterly fed with constant ritual humiliation by my family, especially my mother and older sisters. Sarcastic, patronising jokes at my expense because of my SA. Aye, because social anxiety is so f***in' funny, innit? Absolutely hysterical. NOT!! :mad: It's like being verbally and metaphorically kicked in the bollocks.

And I'm on the verge of snapping and telling them aw tae "F-U-C-K. Off!!" :mad:
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Sounds like my house. Don't let them get too you. I think when they do that they are just trying to make themselves feel better. They probably have their own insecurities, so by shifting the focus to you no one is looking at them. I think that other people feel like it makes them look bigger or superior by looking at other peoples faults. They are lacking something in their life it seems. I hope you feel better.
 
DeadmanWalking

DeadmanWalking

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Lea said:
I read a monton of books in my life, but i miss some practicality or what, i don´t know. I miss some structure and order in my life too, and social network.. multitasking skills.. knowing what to do and how to do it, which way to proceed, what to stick to.. I am searching for work now but it´s like a digging in a pile or manure (where else can I dig too).
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Searching for work? That's really one of those things where you just have to keep digging until you hit gold.

As for the rest of your points, your order and structure comes from making a plan about your life and sticking to it. Decide where you want to take yourself and how you're going to do it. Your social network is made by talking to others. Find a club or simply walk up to someone and talk to them (the second might be harder than the first). And, for skills, find someone nearby that can teach you. The rest is stuff you have to decide on your own; no one can tell you which way to go.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
shakethelight said:
Sounds like my house. Don't let them get too you. I think when they do that they are just trying to make themselves feel better. They probably have their own insecurities, so by shifting the focus to you no one is looking at them. I think that other people feel like it makes them look bigger or superior by looking at other peoples faults. They are lacking something in their life it seems. I hope you feel better.
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It's hard not to them get too me, especially when they think it f***in' hysterically funny to provoke me and make me mad. Meh... why bother standing up for myself, anyway? Aw they do is laugh at me! ::(: B'stards! And I'm "sensable" one, apparently? Aye, cause I keep my mouth shut most of time, and with good reason to... Sorry, going off on a bit of a tangent there.
 
shakethelight

shakethelight

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Graeme1988 said:
It's hard not to them get too me, especially when they think it f***in' hysterically funny to provoke me and make me mad. Meh... why bother standing up for myself, anyway? Aw they do is laugh at me! ::(: B'stards! And I'm "sensable" one, apparently? Aye, cause I keep my mouth shut most of time, and with good reason to... Sorry, going off on a bit of a tangent there.
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I know that it's easier said then done. I am the "black sheep" in my house. My brothers are like the golden children. They live a very normal lifestyle. Then theres me, full of phobias and can't seem to function with the rest of the world. I think that sometimes when people lack in other areas, such as intelligence, it makes them feel better if they can somhow feel more powerful.
You should never give anyone the power to make feel you less than you are. Remember that only you can allow others to steal your confidence in who you are. YOU should stand up for yourself. No body has the right to make you feel weak and inadequate. I truly am sorry that they can be so cruel. I know how that feels.
 
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