Some days I wish I could take my body off and leave it somewhere and just float freely, a non-human entity simply existing in the world, no obligations, no pesky feelings except for a deep, warm peace. I feel trapped in the webs of anxiety in my mind and cornered by my need for deeper human connections and in theory it's as simple as JUST BE YOURSELF but those who say that don't know what it's like to simply be unable to, because your attempts to do so are followed by thoughts that you can't get rid of and insidious subtle-in-origin FEELINGS and no amount of rational thought can make a lasting dent in the primal, deeply ingrained, irrational world of emotions.