Agent_Violet
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Seriously. My husband insisted that i go to a neighborhood party with him (which is great for him bc he always talks to all the nosey bastards in our neighborhood while i avoid them like their zombies or something...) anyway, we're at this party and people smile at me and i smile back.great right? well...I walk up to my one neighbor to compliment her landscaping and she is standing with 3 other women. My compliment was well received and she went on to ask me where I took my classes for my motorcycle license. So I told her and the other ladies asked a few questions about it.
Then the subject changed to all the wine selections everyone brought to the party. Well...in the middle of that conversation, someone called one of the ladies over to look at something and so she excused herself and walked away...well the ladies that were left just kinda looked at me and were like, "ooh i need more wine" or "oooh i think im going to try some of that yummy cheese that so-n-so brought with her."
and they just walk away from me.
Same thing happened to me all night. What is wrong with me that women hate me??? I mean, I could stand there and hang with the guys all night and they'd include me in their conversations as if I were one of them. I talked about all kinds of stuff with my husband and a group of men for nearly an hour...and not once was I excluded.
Sometimes I really hate myself. I didn't do anything to the women at this party and it's like they barely tolerated my presence. It's like that everywhere for me. I never can make friends with my son's friends moms either. This crap has been happening to me since high school.
i honestly don't understand it. I mean, I prefer being alone but sometimes I wish I had some sort of female companionship other than my mom ya know?
It just feeds my anxiety and makes me not ever want to go to another party or gathering again.
Then the subject changed to all the wine selections everyone brought to the party. Well...in the middle of that conversation, someone called one of the ladies over to look at something and so she excused herself and walked away...well the ladies that were left just kinda looked at me and were like, "ooh i need more wine" or "oooh i think im going to try some of that yummy cheese that so-n-so brought with her."
and they just walk away from me.
Same thing happened to me all night. What is wrong with me that women hate me??? I mean, I could stand there and hang with the guys all night and they'd include me in their conversations as if I were one of them. I talked about all kinds of stuff with my husband and a group of men for nearly an hour...and not once was I excluded.
Sometimes I really hate myself. I didn't do anything to the women at this party and it's like they barely tolerated my presence. It's like that everywhere for me. I never can make friends with my son's friends moms either. This crap has been happening to me since high school.
i honestly don't understand it. I mean, I prefer being alone but sometimes I wish I had some sort of female companionship other than my mom ya know?
It just feeds my anxiety and makes me not ever want to go to another party or gathering again.