HeadFace
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I think this could be completely seperate to my SA, depression, and other disorders that I have.
But it does relate to my terrible sleeping disorder (unknown... I think I might have insomnia but I'll look into that later)
I don't want to leave my room or let alone bed to do anything at night. I HATE the dark. I always imagine... Something... coming out of nowhere... And you know... It ****s my mind. REALLY freaks me out at night. I have to have like two lights on at night just to navigate around the house. It even keeps getting worse.
It's even during the day too.. I won't go in a dark closet... bathroom... Garage... anything without a light on. It keeps me from sleeping, too. I have to keep sitting up with a flashlight to check if anythings there, till I dont have the energy to do anything any more and eventually fall asleep. If I even try to navigate around a dark room, my breathing will get heavier, I'll sweat, my heartbeat will go up by a bajillion, and the shadow of EVERYTHING freaks the **** out of me to make me shakey and run to any sort of light source.
Now that I look at all of it... My phobia leads to my lack of sleep, which could even be causing my SA to be getting worse? Idk.. But I just want this fear gone...
But it does relate to my terrible sleeping disorder (unknown... I think I might have insomnia but I'll look into that later)
I don't want to leave my room or let alone bed to do anything at night. I HATE the dark. I always imagine... Something... coming out of nowhere... And you know... It ****s my mind. REALLY freaks me out at night. I have to have like two lights on at night just to navigate around the house. It even keeps getting worse.
It's even during the day too.. I won't go in a dark closet... bathroom... Garage... anything without a light on. It keeps me from sleeping, too. I have to keep sitting up with a flashlight to check if anythings there, till I dont have the energy to do anything any more and eventually fall asleep. If I even try to navigate around a dark room, my breathing will get heavier, I'll sweat, my heartbeat will go up by a bajillion, and the shadow of EVERYTHING freaks the **** out of me to make me shakey and run to any sort of light source.
Now that I look at all of it... My phobia leads to my lack of sleep, which could even be causing my SA to be getting worse? Idk.. But I just want this fear gone...