LycraPantiies92
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And this is probly gona be a ranty thread, or stuff i have said before but i can't actually hold it back
I am so lonely [oh here we go again, who gives a sh**]
That i would have probably got more attention if i'd gone out and cried on a street corner and seen if anyone wuda noticed/spoke to me..and btw i'd probably have got zilch attention if i'd done that but meh. I have no pals. I have nobody that gives a crap either in the real world or on the net.
So i am lonely. And i say that i am. YOu can disagree if you wanta. but i say that i am lonely. and also that it'll not change.
I spoke to a guy on a cahtroom, who asked me why i wasn't out [eh cos i have this, no pals and i'm lonely] but you know if i'd said that he'd have buggered off and laughed at me andf i wasn't gonna give him that pleasure so shut the chat window thingy.
I haven't got time for losers anyway. But i do wish i had pals.
I was in bed last night and so wished someone was with me so i hugged my pillow. How fcking sad.
It's not really fair tbh. I look ok..[well sometimes, maybe i look ugly, but ha nobody will tell me even if i did] and i can be okay with people when i know them well enough. But that is just never gonna come to me at all. I just look at these girls who have people. I have never had people. and the saddest thing is admitting it. i just don't understand how you can possibly be hated and bullied by nearly a whole year group and make no friends at all through 5 years at school. That is enough to make me see there isn't a hope in hell that anyone will ever like me. It's somethin i can dream of but tbh it's not gona happen. There's somethin wrong with me. I can't see it myself but other people can. And i'm talkin shxte so i'm gona shush now. People everywhere will be like unaccepting. It is not my fault..[well i don' think it is/can be rli] that am like this. Most people do show not much sympathy. It's not right to be like thism, nt right to be alone completely. Why is my life a waste of time? All i need to do now is give up on everything i wanna do with college and stuf then i'd be totally ready for the bin. People act around me as if i am only worthy of a bin. Like you just wouldn't wanna know me.
I sumtimes act up, and i know the public must look at me as if i'ma lil bich that needs taught lessons, but i have nothing no wunder i do.
I don't think i know how to act. I'm not shoor i know how to even have a converstaion or make pals. I dunno but i do know it's practically a waste of time in other words yu know what i'm sayin. It's my last option::
People are a fxcking joke.
And i'm scared.
[Awwwwww. sheez scared. wat a shame..,not!]
yeah.
that is how much most people wud show they cared at all.
How much?
Not at all.
How much am i liked?
not at all.
Bye now.
xx
I am so lonely [oh here we go again, who gives a sh**]
That i would have probably got more attention if i'd gone out and cried on a street corner and seen if anyone wuda noticed/spoke to me..and btw i'd probably have got zilch attention if i'd done that but meh. I have no pals. I have nobody that gives a crap either in the real world or on the net.
So i am lonely. And i say that i am. YOu can disagree if you wanta. but i say that i am lonely. and also that it'll not change.
I spoke to a guy on a cahtroom, who asked me why i wasn't out [eh cos i have this, no pals and i'm lonely] but you know if i'd said that he'd have buggered off and laughed at me andf i wasn't gonna give him that pleasure so shut the chat window thingy.
I haven't got time for losers anyway. But i do wish i had pals.
I was in bed last night and so wished someone was with me so i hugged my pillow. How fcking sad.
It's not really fair tbh. I look ok..[well sometimes, maybe i look ugly, but ha nobody will tell me even if i did] and i can be okay with people when i know them well enough. But that is just never gonna come to me at all. I just look at these girls who have people. I have never had people. and the saddest thing is admitting it. i just don't understand how you can possibly be hated and bullied by nearly a whole year group and make no friends at all through 5 years at school. That is enough to make me see there isn't a hope in hell that anyone will ever like me. It's somethin i can dream of but tbh it's not gona happen. There's somethin wrong with me. I can't see it myself but other people can. And i'm talkin shxte so i'm gona shush now. People everywhere will be like unaccepting. It is not my fault..[well i don' think it is/can be rli] that am like this. Most people do show not much sympathy. It's not right to be like thism, nt right to be alone completely. Why is my life a waste of time? All i need to do now is give up on everything i wanna do with college and stuf then i'd be totally ready for the bin. People act around me as if i am only worthy of a bin. Like you just wouldn't wanna know me.
I sumtimes act up, and i know the public must look at me as if i'ma lil bich that needs taught lessons, but i have nothing no wunder i do.
I don't think i know how to act. I'm not shoor i know how to even have a converstaion or make pals. I dunno but i do know it's practically a waste of time in other words yu know what i'm sayin. It's my last option::
People are a fxcking joke.
And i'm scared.
[Awwwwww. sheez scared. wat a shame..,not!]
yeah.
that is how much most people wud show they cared at all.
How much?
Not at all.
How much am i liked?
not at all.
Bye now.
xx