my own personal postsecret

[exquisite]

i can't leave the house without mascara on. true story.

i've done it a couple of times & the entire time, i was extremely anxious, uncomfortable, & jittery & i couldnt wait until i could get back home.

i hate putting on make-up, other than concealer here & there [my skin is no where near perfect], i dont use anything else. but without mascara, i might as well have gone outside naked.

so i've decided to put myself through my own personal hell...& go to the mall without any mascara, and just a tiny bit of concealer. hell yeah, im kinda proud that i've finally decided on doing this...& terrified too...oy what a loser i am. ::

 

[Nack]

*high five*

 

[Luke1993]

It's okay I won't tell anyone. It can be our little secret

 

[Silvox Black]

There is nothing to be ashamed of. It is excellent that you are gaining enough self-confidence to be able to go without something you once felt needed to make yourself feel presentable. Impressive progress my dear.

 

[rayray]

It's ok,I don't use it either.
ok,that was a joke,because i'm a guy,duh.

But anyway,it's great that you try to do something that you didnt feel comfortable with.
I try not to wear my hood around school and outside of it anymore,I also felt like naked without it,so we do some progress.
hi5.

 

[exquisite]

yay! i'm alive! haha i really was super anxious at first..but then i actually completely forgot that i wasnt wearing any mascara..but that was just with my mom & around strangers..i wanna push it further & see if i can go through a day in uni & classes mascara-free. lol honestly, i'm re-reading this & im thinking to myself just how crazy i sound. i'm afraid of not wearing mascara? ahh i really am messed up

 

[lunarla]

I am the exact same! Weird how that is, it's only mascara. But I feel that it makes me look awake, so I really never go anywhere without it. The thought of going out without it actually makes me a bit anxious myself. But it's really admirable that you're trying to push yourself to do that! Maybe some day I could too.

 

[Harleyq]

I'm that way about undereye concealer. I'm a bit underweight so I think that's why I have dark circles.

Honestly, I don't even think the makeup helps very much, it just gives me a sense of comfort. I recently went to class a couple of times and forgot to wear any and when I realized it, I was like "OMG!!!" lol

 

[exquisite]

I am the exact same! Weird how that is, it's only mascara. But I feel that it makes me look awake, so I really never go anywhere without it. The thought of going out without it actually makes me a bit anxious myself. But it's really admirable that you're trying to push yourself to do that! Maybe some day I could too.

try it. honestly. i wear mascara because i think it makes me look more human & less like a zombie, & people always tell me that i have pretty eyes..& since i'm pretty self-conscious, my eyes are really the only thing that i'm completely sure of in myself.. ha today, i actually was walking around the mall & trying to avoid every single mirror i could find, til i saw myself & realized that i cant exactly run away forever...course, i say this now. haha tomorrow might be a completely different story. this is all part of my crazy theory that i'll never be comfortable with a guy, since i'll always be freaking out about looking good..but i can't look good forever. *sigh* my own form of therapy haha

I'm that way about undereye concealer. I'm a bit underweight so I think that's why I have dark circles.

Honestly, I don't even think the makeup helps very much, it just gives me a sense of comfort. I recently went to class a couple of times and forgot to wear any and when I realized it, I was like "OMG!!!" lol

exactly! but see, i've actually been late for classes & even work because i am literally a slave to mascara.. ha who would've thought that such a radndom object could have such a huge impact on the way i see myself & my self-worth..

 

[agoraphobickatie]

HQ, i do this, and it helps my under eye circles a little.. but i have a little concealer stick that i use, and i draw like a big triangle under my eye instead of just a line under my eye.... i do the line under my eye, one that goes straight down beside my nose down to about the end of my nose, and then back up from the end of my nose to the outside of my eye to make an upside down triangle... supposedly doing that and blending it gives your face more of a 'flat plane' look rather than a dip in under the eye and hides under eye circles... ....i'm a make up fanatic, lol, try it if you like

and i can relate to this thread as well, i'm usually self conscious about not wearing make up, just because i don't like the way i look without it, lol.. i started college not really caring, i wore pajama pants and flip flops! haha ...then dang if i didn't have a class with this guy i started 'talking' with and felt the need to look presentable, haha

 

[Danfalc]

Yeah it took me a while to be able to go out in public without my hat on as well (i am bald). I could not care less now as i keep my head shaved and i am really used to it now.

I feel naked without my hat,Ive got all my hair but I dont know Ive always liked hats anyway,but being able to pull the peak down so I could avoid eye contact was a comfort.

Took me a long time to feel ok without a hat,but I got use to it.I guess makeup,hats ect are sort of a mask we can hide behind.

 

[Island_chic]

I'm the same way about eyeliner and foundation!

 

[Tiercel]

I feel naked without my hat,Ive got all my hair but I dont know Ive always liked hats anyway,but being able to pull the peak down so I could avoid eye contact was a comfort.

I've been wearing hats since I was a wee lad. Now I wear them so my bald head doesn't burn. But the world is always so bright and open without one on. And I remember wearing one to trading card shows years ago, visor pulled down so the guys couldn't see what cards I was looking at. I just didn't want the hassle of a sales pitch, even at 12 years old.

As for the whole makeup thing, I painted my nails black in my freshman year of college. But I didn't wear too much black, so I was basically a guy with long hair and painted nails walking around campus. After a week or so of no one mentioning it I took it off. I was more afraid of someone asking me why I painted them than I was of someone thinking I was gay. It wasn't their thoughts I was afraid of, but of them actually talking to me.

 

[exquisite]

ha omg..sitting in my lecture...no make up on. i'm alive! i can't believe it.. i was actually debating whether or not i should take my mascara with me at least, just in case. but then i decided that that would just be a crutch. so i didnt. & omg. wow. haha well, at least i spared myself 10min in front of the mirror

 

[Ebbe]

ha omg..sitting in my lecture...no make up on. i'm alive! i can't believe it.. i was actually debating whether or not i should take my mascara with me at least, just in case. but then i decided that that would just be a crutch. so i didnt. & omg. wow. haha well, at least i spared myself 10min in front of the mirror

Congratulations! I know how you feel. Back in highschool I had a thing about fake eyelashes. I wore them for years, because I was afraid that if I didn't wear them people would laugh at me for having short eyelashes. Then I stopped wearing them one summer and I was really nervous about what people would say when I started school again.

It turned out that people really don't care (about eyelashes).

 

[Phobologist]

i can't leave the house without mascara on. true story.

i've done it a couple of times & the entire time, i was extremely anxious, uncomfortable, & jittery & i couldnt wait until i could get back home.

i hate putting on make-up, other than concealer here & there [my skin is no where near perfect], i dont use anything else. but without mascara, i might as well have gone outside naked.

so i've decided to put myself through my own personal hell...& go to the mall without any mascara, and just a tiny bit of concealer. hell yeah, im kinda proud that i've finally decided on doing this...& terrified too...oy what a loser i am. ::

Do you have any idea how absolutely stunningly gorgeous you are? Do you model? You don't need makeup at all, you look great naturaly I gaurantee you. Do you think you have a fear of being ugly? What do you feel is underlying this anxiety?

 

[exquisite]

Congratulations! I know how you feel. Back in highschool I had a thing about fake eyelashes. I wore them for years, because I was afraid that if I didn't wear them people would laugh at me for having short eyelashes. Then I stopped wearing them one summer and I was really nervous about what people would say when I started school again.

It turned out that people really don't care (about eyelashes).

that's what i began to think yesterday too..i was freaking out about looking washed out & just "blah"..but then i relaxed & i completely forgot about it..i was still me, people didnt treat me any different. it's kinda weird to me, since i've been so afraid to not put any on for so long..

Do you have any idea how absolutely stunningly gorgeous you are? Do you model? You don't need makeup at all, you look great naturaly I gaurantee you. Do you think you have a fear of being ugly? What do you feel is underlying this anxiety?

:: aw thank you. but i will have to politely disagree. i swear, any photo of me i look at, the more i look at it, the more imperfections i see. so what can be my favorite picture of me, 5 minutes later could be the picture i hate the most. & i can never stop critisizing myself. it's not even that i fear being ugly..since, who is to really say what "ugly" really is? even i dont know..i mean, i dont consider myself to be ugly, i just think i have a lot of imperfections & i've never been able to figure out why i feel this way..

me? model? lol i would never make it as a model..i'm 5'2" on my good (tall) days..

 

[rayray]

that's what i began to think yesterday too..i was freaking out about looking washed out & just "blah"..but then i relaxed & i completely forgot about it..i was still me, people didnt treat me any different. it's kinda weird to me, since i've been so afraid to not put any on for so long..



:: aw thank you. but i will have to politely disagree. i swear, any photo of me i look at, the more i look at it, the more imperfections i see. so what can be my favorite picture of me, 5 minutes later could be the picture i hate the most. & i can never stop critisizing myself. it's not even that i fear being ugly..since, who is to really say what "ugly" really is? even i dont know..i mean, i dont consider myself to be ugly, i just think i have a lot of imperfections & i've never been able to figure out why i feel this way..

me? model? lol i would never make it as a model..i'm 5'2" on my good (tall) days..

I'm just like that,whenever i take a photo of myself or look in mirror,the more i look at myself,the more things i don't like about myself i start to see.
Aw,you're 5'2? that's cute,i usually fall for short girls,however i'm only 5,8,it's quite short also for a guy.

 

[redski]

I wish more women would stop with make up or just use less of it. A lot of women look better without all that crap on their face. No offense to anyone.

 

[exquisite]

I'm just like that,whenever i take a photo of myself or look in mirror,the more i look at myself,the more things i don't like about myself i start to see.
Aw,you're 5'2? that's cute,i usually fall for short girls,however i'm only 5,8,it's quite short also for a guy.

ha, my ex was about 5'6"...but eh, i see it as, if the guy is taller than me, then its all good lol i like my height too..all i gotta do is put on a pair of heels & im automatically taller.

I wish more women would stop with make up or just use less of it. A lot of women look better without all that crap on their face. No offense to anyone.

I too think there are women who look better or great without make up and do not realize it. There is nothing better than natural beauty.

redski & barry, its jsut hard, since everyone tries to fit into that mold of beauty..ha i was 10 when i started wearing lipstick..cuz i thought it would make me pretty. it wasnt that any guy told me that it'd make me "pretty"..just media..make up makes you feel grown up & pretty. its sad that women need random objects like lipstick & eyeliner...& mascara to raise their self-worth... ::