My feelings

[recluse]

For weeks i have almost constantly felt these feelings-



I feel as if my life is over just had my 29th birthday, there is no hope, stuck in a rut....People might say i'm only young but i never see myself getting out of this rut.



The older i get the more i lose hope.



I'm so lonely i feel sick, and there's no use saying to me to just get out there and socialise. I feel lonely even in company as i have rock bottom self esteem.



I feel numb...I can't laugh, cry.....I can't feel love, and i've become virtually asexual....I feel cold and unreal.



I am constantly tired no matter how much sleep i get.



I hate my job.



I feel that everyone hates me.



I feel boring.



I can't think of things to talk about, can't maintain convo either.



I feel i have nothing to offer anyone in regards to relationships/friendships.



I have zero friends.



I feel i am semi dependent on my parents and i feel a burden.



I feel worthless.



I have no life.



I have very little confidence.

 

[Krista]

I'm very sorry to hear you feel this way ::

If it's any consolation, if anyone on this forum lived close to you (including me) we'd hang out all the time. It'd be an awkward, "we both have social phobia, what the hell do we say to each other" kinda moment but I have confidence we'd all get past it ::

In all seriousness, I know exactly how you're feeling. I've felt so lonely that all I do is stay in bed and feel sorry for myself but you can either let yourself have a pity party or you can keep fighting the good fight. If you give up hope of never making it through you've already lost and you seem like a sweet person. One day you're going to have a shop filled with those amazing spoons you make and I'll be your first customer

 

[Jannah]

I'm sorry to hear you are going through this. I can relate to almost everything you said. I have no friends either. Unlike you I am able to cry, but I cry way too much, perhaps it is good so that I let it all out. I hope you can find a way to let it out.

 

[Lorraine Manca]

i'm so sorry you feel bad recluse, i feel hopeless alot too, its no fun

 

[SickCycleCarousel]

For weeks i have almost constantly felt these feelings-

I feel as if my life is over just had my 29th birthday, there is no hope, stuck in a rut....People might say i'm only young but i never see myself getting out of this rut.

The older i get the more i lose hope.

I'm so lonely i feel sick, and there's no use saying to me to just get out there and socialise. I feel lonely even in company as i have rock bottom self esteem.

I feel numb...I can't laugh, cry.....I can't feel love, and i've become virtually asexual....I feel cold and unreal.

I am constantly tired no matter how much sleep i get.

I hate my job.

I feel that everyone hates me.

I feel boring.

I can't think of things to talk about, can't maintain convo either.

I feel i have nothing to offer anyone in regards to relationships/friendships.

I have zero friends.

I feel i am semi dependent on my parents and i feel a burden.

I feel worthless.

I have no life.

I have very little confidence.

Yep that's me to a T. We could be the same person...except I'm a girl and I'll be 26 next month. =\
The only friend I have lives in another country and even then I feel like he doesn't like me very much.

 

[halen]

For weeks i have almost constantly felt these feelings-



I feel as if my life is over just had my 29th birthday, there is no hope, stuck in a rut....People might say i'm only young but i never see myself getting out of this rut.



The older i get the more i lose hope.



I'm so lonely i feel sick, and there's no use saying to me to just get out there and socialise. I feel lonely even in company as i have rock bottom self esteem.



I feel numb...I can't laugh, cry.....I can't feel love, and i've become virtually asexual....I feel cold and unreal.



I am constantly tired no matter how much sleep i get.



I hate my job.



I feel that everyone hates me.



I feel boring.



I can't think of things to talk about, can't maintain convo either.



I feel i have nothing to offer anyone in regards to relationships/friendships.



I have zero friends.



I feel i am semi dependent on my parents and i feel a burden.



I feel worthless.



I have no life.



I have very little confidence.

i wish this wasnt true but its the same for me i cant hold on much longer i wish to just end it all


teetering on the brink

 

[BlueDays]

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[Ignace]

Well, it's not gonna work but I'm gonna try to make you feel a liiiiitle bit better:
It's better to hate your job, then not having a job.

 

[IamThisOne]

I feel the same way as you do. I told myself that if my life has not changed by the time I'm 30, then I will just go ahead and shoot myself in the head, regardless of family and other things keeping me from doing it now.

I hope everything gets better for you.

 

[EasySkanking]

Well, it's not gonna work but I'm gonna try to make you feel a liiiiitle bit better:
It's better to hate your job, then not having a job.

True that...

God, social phobia makes life so ****in hard.... I WANT to do so many things, I TRY to do so many things.... but because of sa, they hardly ever work out.

I can't say much recluse, besides that those are just the symptoms of social anxiety... and that I live them too.... I don't know what to do either, I feel so lost ::