I hate the job. I was told it was just serving in the dining area, but its that plus serving in wards which is horrible coz some of them are just laying there like zombies its horrible to see, not to mention theres one guy who just stands behind you, hovering the entire time you're trying to work in that area, I almost had a panic attack at having someone standing so oddly so close to me. Plus one man just poured his hot coffer on himself on purpose, right after I handed it to him, he later was saying we're all trying to poison him.Plus its also essentially 50% a kitchen hand role which i wasnt told about. Plus some of them try to talk to you and you cant understand them, some of them are yelling at hallucinations.. It was just horrible.
In all it was a really big struggle, and that was with someone working with me teaching me what to do, on my 3rd shift Im just expected to do it all alone. Im not ready for that at all.
Plus my car wouldnt start after work, I just really needed to come home and my car wasnt starting and I ended up having a mini breakdown once I got home, my pups had destroyed my set of Xena dvds (which are very dear to me). That was pretty much the final straw, I ended up sobbing on the floor.
Im really feeling overwhelmed right now, I was really looking forward to the job, I had high hopes for it, instead it wasnt at all like I was told, it was so emotionally taxing and I just hated every moment of it..
