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Urghhh.. I am so angry! :veryangry: But it's a better now. So, my brother called me into his hot room to talk about how he's gonna carry his books to school. And I'm thinking, wft?! Doesn't he, uh, have a backpack? So, he was originally gonna go to school without his backpack, just carry his books in his arms. So I told him, what if it's raining? A backpack offers more protection in addition to more convenience. It can hold multiple things inside vs bare arms. My brother said he didn't want to use his old backpack because it's dusty. So I had to vaccuum it for him, as I didn't want to use a featherduster because dust would fly everywhere. This woke my dad up, who got angry. So I brought the backpack to my brother who then said he refuse to use the backpack anymore because it has faded colors. :kickingmyself: What happens next is like getting trapped in a haunted house. He already spent like 10-20 minutes still deciding whether to use a backpack or not, without choosing any of the backpacks that I brought him. I told him to buy a new one, but he ignored my advice and just kept thinking so hard like solving some freaking hard puzzle! I have just about had it. I tried to excuse myself to go out by saying I'm thirsty gotta drink water, but he refused to let me go. I told him I didn't like kneeling like this and begged him to let me go. But he still wouldn't allow it. What have I gotten myself into? I shouldn't have even offered to help him! 
h: Finally, after 30 minutes inside his freakin hot room, with my knees hurting from kneeling in front of his freakin computer since there was no otehr chair to sit on, he finally let me go. But guess what? He still hasn't decided on whether to use a backpack or not! OK fine then, not my problem! I don't even know what the f*ck he wants, a handbag maybe? Gosh, it's so hard to reason with someone who's freakin paranoid, mad, agoraphobic, etc. My mom definitely didn't do a good job raising him!
h: Finally, after 30 minutes inside his freakin hot room, with my knees hurting from kneeling in front of his freakin computer since there was no otehr chair to sit on, he finally let me go. But guess what? He still hasn't decided on whether to use a backpack or not! OK fine then, not my problem! I don't even know what the f*ck he wants, a handbag maybe? Gosh, it's so hard to reason with someone who's freakin paranoid, mad, agoraphobic, etc. My mom definitely didn't do a good job raising him!Urghhh.. I am so angry! :veryangry: But it's a better now. So, my brother called me into his hot room to talk about how he's gonna carry his books to school. And I'm thinking, wft?! Doesn't he, uh, have a backpack? So, he was originally gonna go to school without his backpack, just carry his books in his arms. So I told him, what if it's raining? A backpack offers more protection in addition to more convenience. It can hold multiple things inside vs bare arms. My brother said he didn't want to use his old backpack because it's dusty. So I had to vaccuum it for him, as I didn't want to use a featherduster because dust would fly everywhere. This woke my dad up, who got angry. So I brought the backpack to my brother who then said he refuse to use the backpack anymore because it has faded colors. :kickingmyself: What happens next is like getting trapped in a haunted house. He already spent like 10-20 minutes still deciding whether to use a backpack or not, without choosing any of the backpacks that I brought him. I told him to buy a new one, but he ignored my advice and just kept thinking so hard like solving some freaking hard puzzle! I have just about had it. I tried to excuse myself to go out by saying I'm thirsty gotta drink water, but he refused to let me go. I told him I didn't like kneeling like this and begged him to let me go. But he still wouldn't allow it. What have I gotten myself into? I shouldn't have even offered to help him!
Wtf! Are you his slave or something? Why can't he clean his own backpack himself? Does he normally call you into his room to debate on how to do life's simplest things? I find that a bit...odd. I have 4 younger brothers, and I lived with 3 of them for 6 years and we wasn't like that. One of them came into my room and I'd throw stuff at them until they left. Maybe it's different when there's no sisters involved? If they called me into their room to discuss a school backpack one of us would've got punched in the face.
That's exactly how I feel. When I'm too nice he takes advantage of it. Yeah, he calls me into his room to ask me things such as should he go to school today, should he switch schools, should he buy something online, etc. He should be the one to decide for himself for many of these questions, not tell other people to decide for him. He keeps telling me to "put yourself in my shoes" and decide what to do. I told him I can never be him nor make decisions for him.
I'm proud of you for telling him what you think of the situation. :thumbup:
Thanks! Even though it wasn't effective, at least I said something.
Is it alright to get along with some relatives and not with others? People say things like, "friends may not be forever, but relatives are forever because of the blood ties." But, I only get along with some relatives, not so much with others. I don't want to prostrate myself and try to ***** up to relatives who don't like me, just to gain their favors/respect. They look down on me because they think I'm stupid. I say, let them think what they want to think. I don't need such negative people in my life. Relatives or not, it's important to surround yourself with positive people who will encourage you.
So, I've been reading this manga Yamada kun to 7 nin no majo. There was one part where they were choosing VPs for the student council. There were 5 candidates total. 3 of them were the typical smart-*** students who looked down on people like Yamada. They behaved horribly towards Yamada but changed behaviors when they met with the interviewers. The other 2 weren't as smart or deceptive, but were more honest with how they behave. In the end, the last 2 were chosen to be VPs. I guess the lesson learned here is, smarts isn't everything. It's not the most important quality/trait in a person. Honesty, kindness, respect, etc are just as important. Smarts without honesty is useless.
Hey, you had the guts to say it. That's all that matters in my book. Weather he listens to you is out of your control. So, again, good job!
erfect:I hate it that they act that way to you but I don't believe in toxic relationships, family or not. I don't speak to my father or my half brother by him and I don't plan to. We ain't spoke or seen each other in 3 1/2 years, and I'm cool with it.
I was reading this online comic about 2 guys on a field trip. The guy with the glasses seems wise beyond his years - I wish I could speak deeply like him. In high school, I did a lot of rote memorization of facts, especially in history class. It was gruelling, took a lot of my free time away, maybe one day I will use the knowledge learnt?
The girl in the web comic reminded me of my classmates back in the old days. I remember letting this dude borrow my textbook, out of kindness, because he didn't have his for class. Then he checked his phone and started asking me all sorts of questions like he was quizzing me. I find it odd because he could have just searched for the answers in the textbook. I answered his questions, but felt a little uneasy. I knew he was testing me, to see how "stupid" I am. I heard some student said, "she's stupid" when I responded to his questions. He never sat next to me again.
I met many classmates who are simply insensitive and offputting. Yet, I find it ironic that they aspire to get into the medical field, where understanding and humility are required to deal with patients. Makes me think whether they're doing it because they truly want to help others?? or they just want the money and prestige.
The girl in the web comic reminded me of my classmates back in the old days. I remember letting this dude borrow my textbook, out of kindness, because he didn't have his for class. Then he checked his phone and started asking me all sorts of questions like he was quizzing me. I find it odd because he could have just searched for the answers in the textbook. I answered his questions, but felt a little uneasy. I knew he was testing me, to see how "stupid" I am. I heard some student said, "she's stupid" when I responded to his questions. He never sat next to me again.
I met many classmates who are simply insensitive and offputting. Yet, I find it ironic that they aspire to get into the medical field, where understanding and humility are required to deal with patients. Makes me think whether they're doing it because they truly want to help others?? or they just want the money and prestige.
MikeyC
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People do change once high school is finished, although that's where you knew them, so it's unlikely to change your perception of them.
You seem to have had a long history of nasty people in your life. I'm sorry for that, jaim. I hope it turns around and you can meet some decent people for once.
^Thanks!
Today I made an effort to talk to my dad during dinnertime, because studies show that children who converse during dinnertime exhibit higher levels of confidence and improved verbal fluency. Even though the convo got a little heated and things didn't turn out the way I expected, in the end I'm proud of myself for making an effort to improve myself.
Today I made an effort to talk to my dad during dinnertime, because studies show that children who converse during dinnertime exhibit higher levels of confidence and improved verbal fluency. Even though the convo got a little heated and things didn't turn out the way I expected, in the end I'm proud of myself for making an effort to improve myself.
I thought you were an adult. :question:
I am an adult, but growing up my family didn't really sit together for breakfast, lunch, or dinner. I think it's part of the reason why my social/verbal skills are so bad. When my dad sat with me yesterday, I saw it as a chance to hold a casual convo with someone. I have a choice: to either be quiet as usual, or speak up. So I chose to speak up but the convo didn't go smoothly partly because I was a bit rough-mannered. I notice my tone of voice is pretty harsh; I sound like I'm attacking people which in turn angers them. It's something I need to work on.
Oh ok. I got confused.
MikeyC
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What the hell?
I remember you said in this thread that you like men who have lots of money and who are successful, so that could tie in to what you feel about being "saved" from your current life. Good on you for trying to work on it, though.
I just had a scary daydream that I was pregnant! I started freaking out and thought, "I'm too young to be a mom! I don't want a kid at this age! Ahhhhhh...." Even though the daydream is over, I'm still kinda freaked out. Wow, I don't know if it's OCD, wild active imagination, or what. I just had my period this month. No way I'm pregnant. Now stop thinking about it!
MikeyC
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Hey, I'm not judging.
I was just pointing out that there could be a connection between the two. Marriage is a big deal so love is definitely more important than those other things.However, I will admit that girls in general seem to be attracted to men who have it all together: wealth, friends, looks, a nice suit, original hair. I don't think what you're feeling should be too shameful, because men like that offer security as well as love. I think it's just a biological thing.
I'd better go get an Armani suit and wear it to McDonald's. The ladies will be all over me. :bigsmile:
I get this, too.
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