Every day i wake up knowing that i'm just a loser in life. For certain reasons i can't see anything with my left eye and for as long as i can remember my eye has been closed.. guess u can say i'm half blind. For this reason i was bullied in high school. It made me feel completely depressed and stupid.. all my life went down. So i decided to move to another school and unexpectedly i got some 'friends'. All was going well until a popular girl came to me and asked for my name... i turned back to answer and could notice she was smiling so friendly but in the moment she noticed my closed eye her face totally changed, i told her my name and her answer was 'ah.. ok', then she walked away from me. This made me upset and my SA became noticeable.
I distanced myself from everyone... even if some girls told me i was handsome, even if some friends invited me to go out, even if some people trusted me their deepest secrets.. i can't forget the guys shouting kill yourself.
I think everything i say/write/think is stupid, maybe they were right and i'm just a filthy trash... and everybody would be better without me around. No one cares about me and i force myself to believe that i don't need anyone, but deep inside i really need a true friend... someone i can tell how i really feel without thinking i'm weak. But i'm starting to believe that he/she doesn't exist and i'll be alone forever.
I distanced myself from everyone... even if some girls told me i was handsome, even if some friends invited me to go out, even if some people trusted me their deepest secrets.. i can't forget the guys shouting kill yourself.
I think everything i say/write/think is stupid, maybe they were right and i'm just a filthy trash... and everybody would be better without me around. No one cares about me and i force myself to believe that i don't need anyone, but deep inside i really need a true friend... someone i can tell how i really feel without thinking i'm weak. But i'm starting to believe that he/she doesn't exist and i'll be alone forever.