ChrisBcrusty
Active member
So clearly everyone on this forum has social anxiety and avoids social situations, but does anyone still have issues even when they find acceptance? I tend to continue doubting myself even when I have been assured 100% unconditional acceptance. I have best friend who has stuck by my side since grade school, he is a very popular person and I feel so not deserving of his friendship. We been friends so long he has seen my true self when I guess I accidently slip out of my shell. For some reason he thinks I am a awesome and hilarious person even when I continue to train wreck every social situation he introduces me to. He only wants to help, but when he throws all these social and vibrant people at me it just makes my anxiety 10x worse. I literally want to run. Recently he has talked to me less and less and the worst part is that I don't blame him. I pushed him away because I cant handle his social baggage. Same thing goes for everyone who has ever really liked me and even on this site I do not feel like I fit in. I overthink everything I write. I always feel like I am talking too much about myself when I am not, but all I want is to relate and help eachother because this I am so miserable the thought of someone else experiencing this crushes me. Everyone here also seems so educated and successful. Like how isn't this DESTROYING your life?? am I just being baby and being lazy? I've have quit good jobs and dropped out of high school because of this, but I feel like it was the right thing to do because I was so depressed I was on the verge of suicide. Anyway I am out of friends and I cant seem to make new ones even when I try so hard. I also am not very familiar with forums so I always feel like am posting in the wrong section or people are annoyed that I am just whining and not trying to fix things. I cant even bond with my own brother. I am so alone even when I am not. Any advice would be much appreciated. :kickingmyself: