Is it worth it?..

enchantress24

enchantress24

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For all of u that suffer from severe depression or even manic depression...is all this emotional pain going to be worth anything in the end? I hear ppl say life is worthwile, life is precious, life is too short to not enjoy it....but what about us that simply cannot see that? Not because we don't want to but something inside us prevents us from seeing it...living it...feeling it. I wonder when this pain will go away and I wish i could foresee the future and just have the reasurrance that there will be a rainbow at the end of this storm inside my head. I need a sign telling me that I should keep on living. Is anything worth the pain??
 
Kat

Kat

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Well no one’s an exception to the rule with that sort of thing which is what people tend to think when other people are able to overcome these problems. We can do it as well but we just need to not give up and find the right solution that works for us.

We can’t trust our own truths so we have to draw strength from people that have seen the rainbow at the end of the storm. :)
 
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Krista

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Believe it or not, there is dear. It's never easy to see but if you hold out longer I bet things get better, we've all been in some horrible situations and hit some very low points. I'm always here if you would like to talk about anything :) As is everyone else I'm sure.

And listen to Kat, she's my mental Yoda lol.
 
Lorraine Manca

Lorraine Manca

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enchantress24 said:
For all of u that suffer from severe depression or even manic depression...is all this emotional pain going to be worth anything in the end? I hear ppl say life is worthwile, life is precious, life is too short to not enjoy it....but what about us that simply cannot see that? Not because we don't want to but something inside us prevents us from seeing it...living it...feeling it. I wonder when this pain will go away and I wish i could foresee the future and just have the reasurrance that there will be a rainbow at the end of this storm inside my head. I need a sign telling me that I should keep on living. Is anything worth the pain??
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these same thoughts go through my head everyday. everyone acts like there is some guarantee it will be worth it in the end. where on earth did that guarantee come from? whose crystal ball said that!!!

the truth is you dont know if it will be worth it til you get to the end. no one knows the future
 
Kat

Kat

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Krista said:
Believe it or not, there is dear. It's never easy to see but if you hold out longer I bet things get better, we've all been in some horrible situations and hit some very low points. I'm always here if you would like to talk about anything :) As is everyone else I'm sure.

And listen to Kat, she's my mental Yoda lol.
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haha :D

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heres a yoda quote

“Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.”
 
enchantress24

enchantress24

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Thank u guys for ur replies. I guess the only thing we have to do is wait and see. Thanx, krista. I'll keep what u said in mind. It's hard finding ppl to talk to and have them understand.
 
Brokenx

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I often think to myself, life couldnt get any worse, so it has to get better at some point, i think that point keeps me going.
 
BlueDays

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enchantress24 said:
For all of u that suffer from severe depression or even manic depression...is all this emotional pain going to be worth anything in the end? I hear ppl say life is worthwile, life is precious, life is too short to not enjoy it....but what about us that simply cannot see that? Not because we don't want to but something inside us prevents us from seeing it...living it...feeling it. I wonder when this pain will go away and I wish i could foresee the future and just have the reasurrance that there will be a rainbow at the end of this storm inside my head. I need a sign telling me that I should keep on living. Is anything worth the pain??
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No. Not in my experience of life. I have been in emotional pain since i was 8 years old. I am now 37.
Can someone tell me how anything can possibly make 29 years of this mental anguish be "worth it"?::(:
 
FountainandFairfax

FountainandFairfax

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I know what you mean. So many days I feel like I'm just going through the motions and pretending not to be as unhappy as I am. I stay distracted constantly to keep from reflecting on my life because I know what I've missed-out on.

I remember being a little kid and watching the big nine year-olds in school and thinking "By the time I'm nine I'll be normal, nine year-olds don't feel this way." Then I turned nine, and nothing changed. So then it became the twelve year-olds I looked at, and the years would pass and nothing would really change and still I'd feel so weird and different from everyone around me.

I guess my point is, I'm weird, and I better start learning to make life weird because normal is never going to come to me. Maybe I can be happy and weird, and sad and weird, and angry and weird and maybe even in love and weird. But to constantly be trying to be normal and all those things too just isn't realistic.
 
enchantress24

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MandyMouse said:
No. Not in my experience of life. I have been in emotional pain since i was 8 years old. I am now 37.
Can someone tell me how anything can possibly make 29 years of this mental anguish be "worth it"?::(:
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I can't imagine living 29 years like this. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this. I'ts only been 10yrs for me and i'm so exhausted already. Going to bed every night hoping that something will change and everything will be ok just to wake up the next morning and feeling the same anguish over and over again.
 
Some_guy

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I've been unhappy for so long it's hard to visualize having a stable, happy life anytime.

That's the only thing keeping me alive though: a faint hope of better days.
 
Nocer

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if i didnt have hard time in life this way, i could be alot worse. I could have my arm cut off for doing something i didnt do, be blind, be mute, be deaf, be a deranged serial killer, or whatnot. I'm just glad i have something that can be managed
 
TheStatue

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It's hard being a self-aware organism. I'm so afraid of growing old. And regardless of whether I accept it or not, I know that one day I'll sit there knowing everything is behind me. And by that point nothing matters anymore. Nothing that has been. Life just "happens", whether you like it or not. I don't know how to deal with that. I guess some people can just forget everything and live in this illusion for as long as it lasts. I'm afraid I've seen through that illusion, lived on the outside, for too long to go back now. Don't know what to do.
 
iamthenra

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Lorraine Manca said:
these same thoughts go through my head everyday. everyone acts like there is some guarantee it will be worth it in the end. where on earth did that guarantee come from? whose crystal ball said that!!!

the truth is you dont know if it will be worth it til you get to the end. no one knows the future
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Mine too... I keep hearing from others that it will all be worth it in the end... Or me wanting a g/f and I hear people tell me "It will happen when you least expect it..." :rolleyes: Good grief, I'm 41 how much longer do I need to wait for the Great Pumpkin to arrive Charlie Brown? ::(:
 
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Lorraine Manca said:
these same thoughts go through my head everyday. everyone acts like there is some guarantee it will be worth it in the end. where on earth did that guarantee come from? whose crystal ball said that!!!

the truth is you dont know if it will be worth it til you get to the end. no one knows the future
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People only make these kinda promises because it's the nice thing to say and it makes them feel like a good person. Ive gotten more ridiculous promises from family and peers then I've seen in most religious systems. I've even been told that I'll live a long and healthy life, don't ask me how someone can tell how long I'll live.
 
El_Pajaro

El_Pajaro

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That's how I feel everyday
and all that goes through my head is

I dont know
I dont know
I dont know

I know thats not helpful but thats how I feel most days
 
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