What are you trying? Not being condescending or anything, but I'm just curious. 🙂 At least you're attempting to change your life, even if it's minor changes.
I don't want to go into personal details but I'm working on an ambitious project.
Thanks! I didn't want to come across stand-offish to anyone. I know everyone here is very cool and understanding. I just hope I can succeed. Maybe I dream too big but that's how I'm wired.
Aside from my ambitious project, a good job would be nice. Hopefully, I'll find one soon. 🙂
Thanks! I didn't want to come across stand-offish to anyone. I know everyone here is very cool and understanding. I just hope I can succeed. Maybe I dream too big but that's how I'm wired.
Aside from my ambitious project, a good job would be nice. Hopefully, I'll find one soon. 🙂
It's not standoffish - I understand completely. 🙂
A job is always nice for some income, but I get how immensely difficult finding one can be. The more you look, the more luck you'll have, so I hope you find one.
You're not a "loser". I'm sure you will find all the luck in the world and be able to move on with your life, that you want to lead. For some it takes longer than others. You will find someone to share your life with and have a great job.
You're not a "loser". I'm sure you will find all the luck in the world and be able to move on with your life, that you want to lead. For some it takes longer than others. You will find someone to share your life with and have a great job.
-_- Don't call yourself a loser. Maybe you feel like you are, and I'd be willing to bet you're not, but saying that isn't going to make you feel any better about yourself! At least your making steps to change your life and make it more how you want it to be. 🙂 Good luck. ^.^
It's interesting you have mentioned all of these things - depression, feeling suicidal, distractions, dreams & ambition, the man having to be "successful" ... and not knowing what's the point of it all.
I think i can see how they all fit-together (from what i've read & piecing it together). Depression is becoming a rapant disease in the so-called modern world. And along with depression, you get the suicidal urges. The dreams/ambition/success are all about the FUTURE (destination), not the PRESENT (journey), so if one is constantly focussed/worrying about the future, they will probably lose the ability to truly enjoy the present (journey).
Distractions are simply ways to blot-out the pain of not living properly "in the now", not addressing one's true emotional needs, worrying too much about the future, having too much pressure to succeed. Also of course constant neurotic thinking patterns do make one more prone to depression (without the depression i doubt there would be suicidal urges)
And what's the point of it all: Can't say for sure, but i do know that in my own times of serious depression, the main thing that was lacking was the ability to experience joy from little things, and maybe peace - very simple things, but whose absense leaves a HUGE whole in one's "soul", which maybe cannot be filled by anything else??
I don't mind you asking and it's definitely not a stupid question. A few days ago, I started to take Fluoxetine again. The first time that I took it was only for a few weeks at 20mg. I'm now taking 40mg. Hopefully that will help. I will also be seeing a Psychiatrist next month.
I'm sorry you feel this way. I feel that way at times as well..."what a waste of life" - I usually end up throwing some kind of pity party with only me invited...
But lately I have been better. 🙂
Keep strong - remember baby steps at a time.
I know, lame advice and easier said than done but I have been trying to just baby step my way through each day
I'm sorry you feel this way. I feel that way at times as well..."what a waste of life" - I usually end up throwing some kind of pity party with only me invited...
But lately I have been better. 🙂
Keep strong - remember baby steps at a time.
I know, lame advice and easier said than done but I have been trying to just baby step my way through each day
You're lucky. I can't even get invited to my own pity parties. :sad:
j/k LOL! That's actually very good advice. Thanks!
I understand feeling like a loser, even though I'm not a guy. I come from a family where the women are hard-working and I feel useless. I believe that if someone loves you, they will accept you for who you are. I hope that your medication helps! & I wish the best for your ambitious project.
I understand feeling like a loser, even though I'm not a guy. I come from a family where the women are hard-working and I feel useless. I believe that if someone loves you, they will accept you for who you are. I hope that your medication helps! & I wish the best for your ambitious project.
Thanks for the kinds words. You're right. If someone loves me they will accept me for who I am. I need to remember that. I tend to try to mold myself into what I think "she" wants, which never works.
Still taking the medication (haven't flushed it down the toilet) and moving forward with my ambitions.....I'm trying.... 🙂
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