i had enough

[Bar-AKA-Redzer]

i cant take this shit no more someone ban me or delete me account, i'm going **** it, **** it! what a ****in bitch! i'm gonna OD i got pushed over the edge tonight and i cant go on no more **** this ****in shit ****in life i live and **** everyone in it too, i got ****in nothinh to live for now so **** it delete this ****in account and i just get it over with

 

[Miami]

Im going to send you a private message.
Give me a minute to type it

 

[Harleyq]

I don't know you but I can honestly say, I hope you don't end ANYTHING tonight except for those terrible feelings that have you up in knots. I know you're upset over an unfulfilled love and feeling heartbroken and you want to end it all...I've been there too. One of my friends was in depression for at least half a year over a lost girl as well.

Judging from your posts, it seems like you've been beating yourself up all day. I know it seems as if it takes forever and you'll never find anyone else, and everything's useless but things do eventually get better...don't know if you'll believe me but for tonight at least, just give it some more time. Don't make a hasty decision just yet because as bad as you feel right now, there's a good chance you won't feel that way after you've had some time to calm down and relax. You deserve to give yourself another chance.

 

[iamthenra]

Whoa... Barry, my brother... Calm down man, can't be that bad? Can it? Hey, you're not alone. I get that way allot too, even though I don't usually express it. I just vent the other stuff... You know... the "sorry for myself because I am so alone and miserable..."

So anyways... I guess what I am trying to say is that we all go through our ups and downs and eventually things come back to more "normal" feelings... So don't despair my friend... PM me if you want to chat. Always here for a friend.

 

[agoraphobickatie]

these guys are all right, bud.. no matter how shitty you may feel currently, 'this too shall pass' ..and i know that's cliche as hell and pretty annoying to hear, but it's 100% true, everything eventually lets up, calms down and gets better.. it's just the way it goes.. i can promise you that we've all been through some kind of pain whether it be better, the same or even worse than what you're feeling right now.. we've all been there in some way or another and you can find the strength to push through it, too, no doubt.. about the love thing, when you think that you've found love and then think you've lost it, there's nothing worse... but there's also nothing better than realizing that what it was, wasn't as good as it could have been.. you have to believe that when it's right, it's right.. and when it doesn't work out, it wasn't supposed to. no matter what is in your head right now, i can tell you that one day you'll find someone and say "damn... this is what i was missing?" ..it's just fact. i do hope that you can breathe and find some time to relax and think clearly, you have no idea how many people on this forum, whom you may have never even met, would like to help you and cheer you up... let us all do our job and help out a fellow sufferer ::

 

[Bar-AKA-Redzer]

its not just over this only one other person on this site knows how really bad my life has been and still is, its always been ****ed up and still is i have NOTHING to live for trust me NOTHING anymore, i dont wanna live anymore anyway i ****in tired of everything now, i really am burned out, gave up hope, i cant see what i have to live for, no family or nothiing so **** it, i gonna do it anyways i always planned it if not tonight then the weekend.

 

[Harleyq]

you have to live for everything you can possibly hope to be, as cheesy and Mr Rogers-esque as that sounds. There is absolutely nothing about you that's inferior to any other person living on this earth. You're young, you have time to improve yourself, to work on getting better, to create happiness in your life. I scanned your posts/profile and you're a talented dj, you're attractive, you have a sense of humor. There is a lot going for you.

It's a huge struggle to get better and it's the same thing all of us are trying to do. You're talking about ending things before you've even really given yourself much of a chance.

 

[iamthenra]

Barry my man... It wasn't that long ago that you were on cloud nine. You were more positive and always helpful giving everyone up here including myself advice on how to improve my life... I remember a comment on those self help books and how you were so passed the SA that you had forgotten what it was like and such....

I guess my point is that things were good just a few days ago, and you are currently in the dumps for obvious reasons... Love is a beyatch, and it stings for sure... You're a good guy Barry, and deserve everything that is good and proper in this life. But right now, you have an open wound, and you have to give it time to heal my friend. Like everything that is painful, time will heal or at the very least take some of the pain away. Hang in there pal!

 

[LycraPantiies92]

=[ don't ..plz don't.
A couple of girls took their lives together and jumped off a bridge in scotland this week. I felt so sorry for them, there are people out there who you can speak to. Please don't do anything silly, go and see someone, your doctor could probably find you someone to see..
I just hope you're okay, i'd be sad to think you want to do it ]: xx

 

[206Raider]

I know how you feel if you got left for dead by a girl, that was all I felt I had left and boom that was gone and I went on a tirade like you but in real life off a lot of booze, cryin and yellin and you jsut gotta fight...shyt this was over a year ago and I'ms till fighting, I feel like a damn zombie but somehow I'm still here so theres gotta be hope for you too...and we've all had different pasts and different pains and you probably couldn't udnerstand mine and I couldn't udnerstand all yours but fucc a stupid bytch man, some girls are like that. jsut say fucc and convince yourself that one day you'll be on top and they will regret treating you like dirt

 

[Satyr]

Barry. I don't know you, but I know this. Everyone has a purpose in life. It sounds like you've helped a lot of people with your interactions on here from the comments. Things are hard now, I get it... But the pain that you're experiencing now will only be surpassed by joy at some point or another, a joy that feels 10 times more powerful than this. The people here really do seem to care... & from the sounds of it those who have gotten to know you some would miss you. I really hope you stick this out. As much as it hurts it could be a lot worse. It's not uncommon for people who attempt suicide to realize – when it's too late they don't want to die ultimately & they try to stop it... and die anyway. That would be a horrible way to go those last few moments regretting what could have – and would have been

I wish you the best & truly hope that you have or will decide against this...

stay safe & hold your chin up man.

 

[divethruhaze]

I'll never know what it's like to be you
But I know what it's like to wanna die.
How it hurts to smile.
How you try to fit in, but you can't.

plz don't do it, you will get better eventually

 

[redski]

Yeah Redzer, try to think of it this way. You blush, you have SA/SP how much harder is your life than people which can socialize with ease. You are a tough one, do not let one bad women get in your way of your mission for self improvement. She was not worth it any way.
Trust me I have been there.

 

[Mack_Berserk]

Don't do it. Keep being strong. Make yourself independent, as impossible as that may seem. Set a goal that you might have had when you were younger and go for it. Maybe you wanted to go to college for something - DO IT. Throw yourself at life and attack - anything to avoid considering the irreversible mistake of taking your own life.

Most importantly, Sleep. Tomorrow is another day - Yes, it may be crappy like this one, but it may also be the best day of your life. That's the beauty, I suppose; Life is a rollercoaster with its ups and downs. And even when most days are down, the 'up' days are valued that much more.