Ice cream
When you seem like you're just down and out, and everything is hopeless it can be pretty hard to be optimistic. I think it's good that you want to be though. I think I am kind of coming to accept the fact that my life is probably going to be pretty much fυcked for the most part. The thing is you never really know, and that can help. Even the tiniest bit of hope can keep you going, and I think it's a really important thing to have, even if it may seem totally delusional.
One thing I also do, which seems kind of silly, but it works I guess. I don't have much to look forward to, like nothing. I'll get excited about the stupidest things ever. I'll get really excited if magazine have that squishy clear glue stuff, or if I don't have to look for the remote or something. Stupid things like that. When there isn't much to look forward to, getting excitement from something stupid can make me more optimist sometimes. That way if something better happens I will be like freaking out in happy deliciousness waves of happiness. Whatever that means. Hmm Sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows!!!! yay!!! umm boo. Hope I wasn't too much of a weirdo.