How are you feeling?

Aletheia

Well-known member
well, this is what I'm working on anyway, do I sound like much of a hippy?

I realize this post is self indulgent and self pitying ... which in itself is unnaceptable. Gah.. everything I do I feel like I m ****ing up.

There is no unacceptable. Accept your feelings because they are you.

And when you accept all, you can see all.

And when you see all, without discrimination, a natural compassion for all things arises, and you become a positive force in the world.

In your own way. Your truth is you. And you are precious.
 
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(apologies for dissecting - i'm bored)
What you mentioned seems all to be people-related...

Disillusioned, misunderstood, ignored and unheard
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Its helpful to know the names of the feelings one is having ... not sure where "Disillusioned" goes, but have entered the other three.

I have had a really bad day
I've had 2-3 "bad" days .. due to suffering a toxic reaction to sth in house (which haven't found yet). So, sleeping a lot, waking with headache, having ZILCH energy to use computer (or do anything except watch tv). Quite unlike me. A hell of sorts - not depression, just depressed about life. I think when sth "goes wrong", then thats the rare time that i become aware of just how screwed-up i am & my life is; the rest of the time i just seem to blot-it-out with constant busyness, binging on comfort foods & alcohol, playing computer games, etc.

and right now I feel like no one gives a damn about me
=my usual state (mainly self-inflicted mind; thngs dont have to be this way, but i have "arranged" my life so that this status-quo remains)

I just wish for once in my life I could find some people that I could relate to
At best, i from time to time find people whom i can "relate" somewhat, and for a short time - and then we part ways. Even my with "best friends" over the years, i have only related to probably about ~75% at best. And only 1 or 2 friends have i kept permamently.
If that is a real goal you have (ie you want to), then i think your best bet would be to find out all that really, truly interests you .. and try to find "places" (in real world, or online) where you can interact with others with this same interest; then over time you might be able to find people who have other things in common with (ie like-minded) (?)

I feel like every single thought, belief and emotion that I have is incorrect or flawed. That everything that I feel is contrary to the reality of the world ... Even right now I feel like I should be apologizing for this post
I've very much had that problem on-and-off, for my whole life. It's like i feel guilty or "bad" if i am mistaken/incorrect about sth that i thought to be true, but which it appears now not to be. But i have always been very wishy-washy & indecisive; might have sth to do with that.
I think its more about being "confident" in your own beliefs/assumptions about the world, than the actual truth .. as WHO REALLY knows anything much about life??? I know that a few years ago i realised that what i "knew" about life was as good as knowing nothing at all, & in fact was worse than, as i was committed to a bunch a stuff that "believed" to be true, but which i had practically no real evidence to support (so not any better than having vague, fuzzy, dogmatic assumptions)
 
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N0D

Banned
so this woman that i see regularly got a new job and this wednesday might be the last time i see her and i've had a crush on her since i met her and i am going to say something this wednesday hopefully cause i don't want this wednesday to be the last time i speak to her for the rest of my life. she's probably like 7-10 years older then me and she has a job and i don't and i'm fail and she just got a job offer for a better job and that's why i won't see her again but since the day i met her there was no question of the chemistry and physical attraction and i am slightly confident the attraction is reciprocated, which when you consider my fail self esteem and epic lack of confidence means if i do feel confidence I'm probably way underplaying it. but if anyone on here cares the least bit about me please if you aren't doing anything be prepared to be a shoulder for me to fall apart on in case she crushes me, and if she doesn't be prepared for me to jump on you screaming in excitement of my epic win...seriously like all week i look forward to seeing her and talking to her for like 1 minute...it's the highlight of my week.
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
so this woman that i see regularly got a new job and this wednesday might be the last time i see her and i've had a crush on her since i met her and i am going to say something this wednesday hopefully cause i don't want this wednesday to be the last time i speak to her for the rest of my life. she's probably like 7-10 years older then me and she has a job and i don't and i'm fail and she just got a job offer for a better job and that's why i won't see her again but since the day i met her there was no question of the chemistry and physical attraction and i am slightly confident the attraction is reciprocated, which when you consider my fail self esteem and epic lack of confidence means if i do feel confidence I'm probably way underplaying it. but if anyone on here cares the least bit about me please if you aren't doing anything be prepared to be a shoulder for me to fall apart on in case she crushes me, and if she doesn't be prepared for me to jump on you screaming in excitement of my epic win...seriously like all week i look forward to seeing her and talking to her for like 1 minute...it's the highlight of my week.

Moment of truth time! First off breathe, you just went 160 words without a period, you must be out of breath. ::p: Sounds like a good risk to take, if it doesn't work out you can just think the same would have happened had you not, at least you tried. Good luck, either way everyone here will be here for you afterward! :)
 

coyote

Well-known member
so this woman that i see regularly got a new job and this wednesday might be the last time i see her and i've had a crush on her since i met her and i am going to say something this wednesday hopefully cause i don't want this wednesday to be the last time i speak to her for the rest of my life. she's probably like 7-10 years older then me and she has a job and i don't and i'm fail and she just got a job offer for a better job and that's why i won't see her again but since the day i met her there was no question of the chemistry and physical attraction and i am slightly confident the attraction is reciprocated, which when you consider my fail self esteem and epic lack of confidence means if i do feel confidence I'm probably way underplaying it. but if anyone on here cares the least bit about me please if you aren't doing anything be prepared to be a shoulder for me to fall apart on in case she crushes me, and if she doesn't be prepared for me to jump on you screaming in excitement of my epic win...seriously like all week i look forward to seeing her and talking to her for like 1 minute...it's the highlight of my week.

do it, man

talk to her

good luck!
 

N0D

Banned
thing is i've know her for like a couple years and she's never had a ring on her finger but that don't mean she's single...but i could work with that...wouldn't be the first girl i stole from someone else.../flex :cool:
 
Roller derby was fun! It ended up just being me and the friend who is shyer than I am. And there was little to no talking for most of the night. She ended up leaving a little early; I don't think it was her kind of thing. The derby itself was pretty cool. I do think that they sold too many tickets for the small space that it was held in. I was standing in the back on my tiptoes for most of it. At halftime a lot of people left and I actually ended up sitting on the floor, about five feet from the skaters.

I also think/hope/am praying that I'll get a certain job I applied for. I have two friends who work there and they put in a good word for me. Plus I have almost 3 years of experience for this particular job title and I have managerial experience. I even bought some new tennis shoes because I'll need some when I have to spend all day on my feet. Hopefully I didn't put my cart before the horse. If I don't get it, I've kept the receipt.
 

MollyBeGood

Well-known member
feeling kinda creeped- out by all the guys who are in their late 20's to mid 30's who want to date this woman who is 70 on this show "Strange Sex" what up with That!?:eek::confused:::p:
 

coyote

Well-known member
狼;577609 said:
feeling kinda creeped- out by all the guys who are in their late 20's to mid 30's who want to date this woman who is 70 on this show "Strange Sex" what up with That!?:eek::confused:::p:

is she hot?
 

MollyBeGood

Well-known member
is she hot?


she's frigging 70.


are wrinkles and liver spots and saggy skin hot now? Wow I am so confused haha thank you The Learning Channel (TLC) There's hope for us all.;) These guys are all out for sex, when a female goes with an older man it's money. Guys are crazy! proof :p
 

coyote

Well-known member
狼;577613 said:
she's frigging 70.


are wrinkles and liver spots and saggy skin hot now? Wow I am so confused haha thank you The Learning Channel (TLC) There's hope for us all.;) These guys are all out for sex, when a female goes with an older man it's money. Guys are crazy! proof :p

jane seymour = 61 years old

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you bet i would
 
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