The thing is, I am beginning to feel uncomfortable because...I am beginning to feel that the group is becoming larger than I am capable of handling. I am getting all those old insecure thoughts of "what if its not what people want" or "what if it disappoints" "are people looking to me for answers?"
I can understand this, because these are the very thoughts that plague me whenever I organize anything and are why I usually don't.
And I know you take your role seriously; at the meetup I attended you put a lot of effort into keeping things going and into making people feel included.
Is there a way for the role to be less onerous? My experience was that I was just happy you'd created the occasion. The group discussed how they'd like to see things develop, and settled very naturally on a new venue; I didn't sense any sort of reliance on you to determine what the group should be.
But if it is getting too much, perhaps at each meetup one person could volunteer to organize the next one.