I'm feeling terrible because I just did something horrible. I just canceled my appointment with my vocational specialist for like the fourth time in a row. I feel terrible about it, but I had to do it. I just know I wouldn't be able to go when the time comes & I don't want to wait until the absolute last minute by calling tomorrow after she's already in her office. I'm worried she'll stop seeing me, though I kind of doubt she will because she knows how hard it is for me to do things & she knows how much harder it is when my mom is in the hospital. But I'm worried that one of these days, the agency will make her stop seeing me. She's the only real person I have to talk to &, even though I know she's not, she's the closest thing to a friend I have. I wish other people were as understanding & easy to be around as her. I hate doing this all the time.