How are you feeling?
- Thread starter Remus
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hugz to everyone that feels like crap right now...
im actually really scared right now. i accidently saw a video on youtube about the girl who inspired the movie emily rose. that exorcist movie. and let me tell you it scared the shit out of me and i wish i never watched it cause now im jumping at any little sound i hear! and the clip was only less then 2 minutes but i swear it was frekain scary.
im a dumbass for watching it and now imnot gonna beable to sleep!!!!!!
im a dumbass for watching it and now imnot gonna beable to sleep!!!!!!
Im feeling really good actually!!! I have no idea why but at this very moment I just feel so happy to be me. I dont like having SP but I couldnt imagine my life without it. This phobia is one of the biggest challenges in my life and strangley I think it makes me a better person. It makes me unique...and I like being unique. SP has forever changed me, but in a good way. Is it horrible that I just dont want to be like everyone else?
Im bad at putting my thoughts into words. I just had to post before my natural high went away.
Im bad at putting my thoughts into words. I just had to post before my natural high went away.
Saya_Shuri
Member
I'm like... neutral. Tired, drained, kinda braindead, and pretty much just waiting for my boyfriend to come online so we can talk a bit before I go to bed because the smallest thing he says makes me feel so much better ^-^
sevenroses
Well-known member
tired of life tired of everything hopeless
MeInTheCorner
Banned
I am feeling good for a change and its worrying me. Feel like i am getting somewhere with this SA thing.
Danfalc
Banned
Just a rant
I just feel like self destructing at the moment... its been like 4 years,ive tried the medication and the therapy and it hasnt done shit.Im up in court in 6 days... and the thing is i dont think i really care what happens anymore.Getting arrested was the most excitng thing that has happend to me recently.. i got away from the dealing and the drugs and getting in trouble because apparently that would make me better... and because i dont want to be a bad person for my gf.But life hasnt been any better since,i feel that at least if i go back to the drugs and everything else it might not be a good life or a very long one but its a better one than im having now,better than sitting in this flat on my own being spoon fed different meds each month by doctors waiting to die and listening to promises of getting better.What was it someone said? somthing like its better for a star to burn bright and short than long and dull.
I just feel like self destructing at the moment... its been like 4 years,ive tried the medication and the therapy and it hasnt done shit.Im up in court in 6 days... and the thing is i dont think i really care what happens anymore.Getting arrested was the most excitng thing that has happend to me recently.. i got away from the dealing and the drugs and getting in trouble because apparently that would make me better... and because i dont want to be a bad person for my gf.But life hasnt been any better since,i feel that at least if i go back to the drugs and everything else it might not be a good life or a very long one but its a better one than im having now,better than sitting in this flat on my own being spoon fed different meds each month by doctors waiting to die and listening to promises of getting better.What was it someone said? somthing like its better for a star to burn bright and short than long and dull.
Danfalc22
Banned
Feelin Better than i did when i posted my last post in here.Kinda had a day of clarity so to speak and some good advice.Ive finaly kinda accepted that things arnt just gonna sort them selves out one day and ill wake up and everything will be fine.I dont know why... but ive been in some kinda denial because i havnt felt i deserved what happend in my childhood and getting ill wid depression and sp and everything else.. i guess i havnt felt its been fair and felt sorry for myself.
But life isnt fair and ive gotta accept the facts and if i wanna get better i know ive gotta work hard for it,and stop waiting for someone else to sort my problems out... or expect things to just get better,i cant just sit around waiting and hoping for my motivation and willpower to come back,i need to decide what i wanna do/be in life and start working towards that.I need to stop feeling sorry for myself because we cant change the past as much as it hurts.
But life isnt fair and ive gotta accept the facts and if i wanna get better i know ive gotta work hard for it,and stop waiting for someone else to sort my problems out... or expect things to just get better,i cant just sit around waiting and hoping for my motivation and willpower to come back,i need to decide what i wanna do/be in life and start working towards that.I need to stop feeling sorry for myself because we cant change the past as much as it hurts.
Kien
Well-known member
I feel very bored but very content about my haircut. It's anther friday when I'm sitting here alone with not much to do. While my classmates are partying at some place. I don't know if I would like to be with them. I don't find spending time with people very fun actually. :/ I don't like doing much things and I can't talk much. Still I feel lonely. I don't know what could make life better. I don't think it's even possible that life could be better. I will rot away in my home. And I just wish the tiny desire for love that has started to haunt me in later times would just go away forever.
LovelyMissMadi
Active member
At this point I'm just blah. I'm not happy or depressed. I'm sorta like, "Yay!" in a not-so-yay way.
On the 12th it was my grandma's birthday. I drew her a picture of an angel, but she didn't get it from me. I was too nervous to give it to her. When she left I hung it up on the wall and took my dog for a walk. I don't know.
Recently I convinced myself I was nuts. I just got really hyper. I actually got called a hyperactive hooligan.
On the 12th it was my grandma's birthday. I drew her a picture of an angel, but she didn't get it from me. I was too nervous to give it to her. When she left I hung it up on the wall and took my dog for a walk. I don't know.
Recently I convinced myself I was nuts. I just got really hyper. I actually got called a hyperactive hooligan.
Zarrix
Well-known member
Today, fairly dull. Nothing bad happened (other than the usual work judgments and criticisms), but nothing particularly good happened either.
However, I did have a moment of immense anxiety today. I'm still thinking about it, but I have moved on. I normally have an urge to escape, but I became anxious, slightly nauseated, stiff movements etc.
However, I did have a moment of immense anxiety today. I'm still thinking about it, but I have moved on. I normally have an urge to escape, but I became anxious, slightly nauseated, stiff movements etc.
