Aw, I hope you find happiness, really. Happiness is through Christ, the Lord, being a follower of that and leading others to it/Him; by being a full example of Him that's when others will see and follow Him too and then peace and transformation comes and it's a choice. That's all I can say for now. All the best, Graeme! I'll pray for you!Oh, just my oldest sister making empty promises as usual. Talking me into agreeing to go somewhere – pressuring me more or less – or agreeing to something I suggested then going back on her word when I mentioned it.
That, plus my mum pointed out how controlling and selfish she – my sister – is. As well as how dysfunctional we are as family, and why that is. Which, needless to say, gave me a depressing reality check about my life, especially my mother's "Keep the peace. Don't argue" mentality. Basically, in other words: fake a smile and pretend it's all fine despite things being otherwise.
Needless to say, that's triggered a depressive "episode" for lack of a better word. And made me realise a lot of things about my life; mainly that my happiness is dictated more by those around me than myself. That the people around me are pretty toxic. That, like my mum, I spend most of my time putting others first. And I guess the main one: that I'm not really happy.