How are you feeling?

spurs

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think i'm gon fail this semester. have an exam in 2 days which i haven't studied for the whole semester, only just bought the text book yesterday, so done no reading for it. can't finish my assignment that was due last week. feeling stupid, incompetent, can't concentrate, feeling guilty about how much money i'm waisting if i fail. i'm screwed basically.
 
feeling ok..as long as I don't think abt the outside world..get anxious thinking abt work n stuff..really bored as I dont work right now..feel low thinking I can do so much but cant coz of this social anxiety..stopped clonezapam cause it made me gain weight :(
 

Sable

Well-known member
I'm trying to work up the nerve to make several phone calls. I have avoided it for as long as I can. I've sent emails, letters, CVs. Now all I have left is around a dozen phone numbers. I have to do it, I need a job. I can't sit in the house any more, it's doing my head in. I've been feeling much more confident than usual these last 2 weeks, even been to 2 interviews! Why is it so hard to use the phone???!!!
 

thequietone

Well-known member
Right now? Not good.

In the end, I did it to myself. Had the day off and chose to do NOTHING. :roll: *stupid* :x I know this is not good for me but I did it anyway. It's not good for my body and it's definately not good for my mind. In a way, regimented work and school schedules assist me by forcing me into the world, even though I don't like it at the time, it's better than staring at a computer screen all day and not bothering to change your PJs until two in the afternoon!!! :)
 
Right now i'm tired, and really hate my uncle.


Okay. I wake up to my mom's brillant instructions written on an e-mail.
She's usually at work when I wake up so I have to get myself something to eat. I go into the kitchen, get the stuff out, and here comes my jerk of an uncle. I'm usually a bit irritable when I wake up and was in a hurry to get away from him, so I kinda slam and shuffle the stuff around. He then grabs the Jelly [it's his] and goes about saying "how are you gonna be slamming my stuff around". I say" like this" and grab the can. We struggle for a bit, and, even for a deformed gorilla, he's strong. Afterwards, he goes into a long drawl about disrespecting others stuff, being nice, blah, blah, blah.
He then says " go on and get your food". Me, being even more irritable, just put the biscuits back, and left the kitchen. He can put his OWN freaking jelly back.



I never really liked my uncle, and wish he would just vanish. Not die, just leave. I needed to vent that somewhere, and , right now, wish that my imaginary buddies were real. I don't really like any of my family other than my 4 cousins, my mom, my grandma, my dad, my sister, and my nieces and nephew. Now excuse me while I talk to a pillow....
 

scatmantom

Well-known member
Its saturday night Im about to go to town, yet again im worried and my stomach is tied in knots, but I'm gonna go anyway.
 

BrokenSmile

Well-known member
more lonely :( i have no one to talk... no friend which i could call in the middle of the night if i have a nightmare... i pushed people away from me ignoring them ...even the penpals :( ...and now i got nothing ...alone in the dark ... when i need the most a friend i have nobody by my side ... everyone live me alone when i need more then ever somebody beside me :( ... this i deserve if i don't even trying to socialize with people... screw them ... i'm on my own... i don't need humans :x
 

natebrooce

Member
sad because i spent my weekend tied up in my room all alone again.... I have no one to talk too...

i coulda been out to a big party, but i couldnt leave my house, i hate how i decide not to go, even though i just regret it later cos i want someone to talk too.

:x im freaking nuts

n im tired its 2am
 

scatmantom

Well-known member
right now im feeling good. I went out last night and had a friend stay for the weekend. Didn't phase me anything like it would have 12 months ago. I really think I'm getting over this...and the reason..massive exposure to the things I fear.
 

pooh

Member
"I am an average 24 yrold but I don't feel that way. My shyness has affected every aspect of my life school work socializing,friendships, relationships etc. "


hi there! i can relate to u when u say u r 24 but dun feelk like it..
i am in late twenties but dun feel like it too, coz seldom socialise, no close friends etc. so i feel like early twenties, haha ..

i have phobia of meeting new people, and it shows on my face everytime i am in a social setting like camp, bbq etcetc. sigh..it is so embarrassing, i thought going to these social events can help me deal with it, but i was wrong, guess i need to seek other ways to help myself..

maybe start with socialing in small group first .. =)


i have got many cute guys dating me but i dun dare to go, coz i know i would screw it up.. how i wish i dont have this problem and i am normal.. then i can enjoy normal lives like other young people..
 

thequietone

Well-known member
Angry and confused. I'm going for coffee with a "friend" although I hardly feel like she could possibly know me. I'm angry because I have to go. I'm angry because I agreed to go and confused because my therapist is always telling me not to be afraid to say "no" if I don't want to do something but I NEVER want to do something. :evil: Like I said. Angry and confused.
 

Sable

Well-known member
My anxiety is getting the better of me again these days. I miss my friends from school. I've only ever had 2 good friends in my life, and I miss them. They're both off living their lives, and I've been left behind. God, I miss them.

The longer I stay here the worse it seems to be getting. I'm nearly 23, and the prospect of leaving home is getting more and more impossible the older I get. I can't even get a job, I'm too afraid of the phone. I should leave, I NEED to leave. But I can't. I'm scared of EVERYTHING. I'm pathetic. It's 2.30pm, and I'm alone in my room, in the dark.
 

yumms

Active member
Well lets see...depressed.

Thinking about how life would be so different and better if it wasnt for SP really gets me depressed.

Then all the crappy embarrassing moments that happen in the past pop up in my head.

Then thinking about the future...where I can see no positives at all...gets me even more depressed.

Oh and I hate my job, can't get a better one since my education was screwed up due to SP.
 

lovemylas

Active member
I feel upset. I feel helpless. I don't feel good. Someone that means this entire world to me, is hurting somewhere right now, and I can't do anything about it.
 

Higolo

Well-known member
Feeling rubbish. In the 'positive posts' thread, i posted that i got 4 girls numbers when i went to the cinema. How shit i feel compared to then is such a joke, honestly.

Compared to 5 months ago though, i have made great progress. I don't actually believe i have, but i'm supposed to be praising myself. Gah.

P.S. Why in the hell do i have Wally as my avatar? :|
I know i uploaded him, but i'm wondering WHY i did that? Wally FFS :mrgreen:

Edit; Changed my avatar, as you can see.
 

scatmantom

Well-known member
another Sunday...another major hang over

Yet again I've decided i'm never gonna drink again. Tia Maria and Coke....a deadly drink!!!!!!!

Hang overs always make my anxiety worse....I cant wait for the recovery cos now Ive got guilt and feel pretty sick :cry:
 

Sable

Well-known member
I hate this place. Not this forum, I hate my life. I want to get drunk/stoned/murdered.. doesn't matter. All I can think about is how much I hate myself. I want to starve to death. I want to take a knife and cut my face off. I want to curl up and die.
 
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