Or, why is Feathers even here? 
(Some of you have questioned that.)
I can be really good in theory, and not so good in RL, sometimes... I've read an inordinate amount of books, remember? (Both fiction and non-fiction) And some stuff here seems really 'basic', I've gotten through it a long time ago already.. (Or never/rarely had problems with some aspects of it.. like restaurants.. I LOVE eating out!)
When looking at the 'official' info, I saw I don't have many of the fears stated there: mostly just 2 - dating phobia and authority figures phobia. And job/career phobia, sort of.. (There might be a few others too..) They all do connect, sort of...
It doesn't help that I'm a wanna be eco activist and would like to do some really interesting and important projects... ::
/And have even done some, despite sorta panic attacks the night ahead or so, lol!/
I've worked through a lot of the stuff that was a problem when I was a teenager or so.. (with books and learning from roommates, interaction with people etc) Getting back home has made things worse again. Word of advice to anyone with SA: if you were miserable at home as a teenager, don't go back, you'll probably be again!
There was a reason you had SA - most likely it'll return!! (Even if your parents are good and decent people!!)
You can be much better off around other people..
I've had jobs that I liked and more those that I didn't. Didn't last long though.. I wanted to start my own biz and/or non-profit and it hasn't gone so well.. don't think I'm brave enough or have self-discipline enough to do it. Have been ADD/OCD/BDD/bipolar-ish/HSP/gifted/intelligent/'weird'/creative/quirky/funny/whatever else? too.. (I don't really believe in labels, they're just.. uhm, labels.. and we're just, uhm, people..) But then again, when has anyone normal ever made history?
might get tested for celiac too.. (if I ever get brave enough..)
Don't believe in meds and chemicals, only as a last resort maybe.. would prefer to get healthy in natural ways.. still learning..
Have written lots of beginnings of novels, and almost a whole one 1st draft (that needs to be heavily edited). Can't seem to write books these days though.. (And have first drafts of two halves of other ones.)
Feel like my life is a book written of first drafts and such too, right now somewhere in the middle or beginning/middle and I don't know what happens next. Sometimes I think its a Japanese/Korean drama, very silly..
Big imagination. Sometimes it's a big help, sometimes a hindrance.
Have written a lot of songs that stay in the closet, mostly.. And may have bad rhythm.
Some people on this board overestimate my musical capabilities.
Have been too perfectionistic at times, and not perfectionistic enough at others..
My parents wish a different daughter (many of the times). I sometimes wish different parents too (and wonder whether having my own kitchen in the attic would help?)
(Some of you have questioned that.)I can be really good in theory, and not so good in RL, sometimes... I've read an inordinate amount of books, remember? (Both fiction and non-fiction) And some stuff here seems really 'basic', I've gotten through it a long time ago already.. (Or never/rarely had problems with some aspects of it.. like restaurants.. I LOVE eating out!)
When looking at the 'official' info, I saw I don't have many of the fears stated there: mostly just 2 - dating phobia and authority figures phobia. And job/career phobia, sort of.. (There might be a few others too..) They all do connect, sort of...
It doesn't help that I'm a wanna be eco activist and would like to do some really interesting and important projects... :
:/And have even done some, despite sorta panic attacks the night ahead or so, lol!/
I've worked through a lot of the stuff that was a problem when I was a teenager or so.. (with books and learning from roommates, interaction with people etc) Getting back home has made things worse again. Word of advice to anyone with SA: if you were miserable at home as a teenager, don't go back, you'll probably be again!
There was a reason you had SA - most likely it'll return!! (Even if your parents are good and decent people!!)
You can be much better off around other people..
I've had jobs that I liked and more those that I didn't. Didn't last long though.. I wanted to start my own biz and/or non-profit and it hasn't gone so well.. don't think I'm brave enough or have self-discipline enough to do it. Have been ADD/OCD/BDD/bipolar-ish/HSP/gifted/intelligent/'weird'
/creative/quirky/funny/whatever else? too.. (I don't really believe in labels, they're just.. uhm, labels.. and we're just, uhm, people..) But then again, when has anyone normal ever made history? might get tested for celiac too.. (if I ever get brave enough..)
Don't believe in meds and chemicals, only as a last resort maybe.. would prefer to get healthy in natural ways.. still learning..
Have written lots of beginnings of novels, and almost a whole one 1st draft (that needs to be heavily edited). Can't seem to write books these days though.. (And have first drafts of two halves of other ones.)
Feel like my life is a book written of first drafts and such too, right now somewhere in the middle or beginning/middle and I don't know what happens next. Sometimes I think its a Japanese/Korean drama, very silly..
Big imagination. Sometimes it's a big help, sometimes a hindrance.
Have written a lot of songs that stay in the closet, mostly.. And may have bad rhythm.
Some people on this board overestimate my musical capabilities.
Have been too perfectionistic at times, and not perfectionistic enough at others..
My parents wish a different daughter (many of the times). I sometimes wish different parents too (and wonder whether having my own kitchen in the attic would help?)
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