People have come up and told me they hate being around me because I'm too quiet/calm/boring . . .etc.
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People have said that I was "mean" because I don't talk to anyone!
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I really do feel everyone hates me at school. The glares they give me in class, when I'm attempting to do a presentation in class. . etc.
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You know what sucks?
When teachers try to make friends for you.
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Man, don't you just hate high school.
Hi! Yes, you're right, school can make you suffer a LOT. When I finished school I just couldn't believe I finally got rid of them all!!! Then I went to university and my life got a lot better than before, but I still did suffer some bad times there (more because of trouble in my mind as a result of past experiences) and finally when I finished university I got free and now I rule my own life.
Of course things are never perfect, and today I still have a lot of negative things inside my head and self-esteem problems, but when I look back... it was a LOT worse, it was a nightmare really.
But now, believe me, it's like a rebirth. You finish all school and university and then you finally get your LIFE, and you start to feel a LOT better.
In school I was very quiet and never talked to ANYONE. I only spoke when teachers asked me something (and I was always praying they would not!!).
I hated the school playground so I used to pray the heavens to make it rain a LOT so teachers would allow me to stay indoors, inside the classroom.
I spent all the time alone, and almost always reading a book.
Almost everyone at school called me fat and other really crazy names ALL THE TIME.
In teamwork projects and in the sports class no one would choose me for their team.
For all those reasons I got anorexia when I was 13, and I lost a lot of weight (about a half of my whole weight).
Fortunately now all those things stay in a distant past. Or at least, I try to keep them there. I try hard everyday not to let those BAD memories affect me and my behaviour. Of course, sometimes I fail, other times I succeed.
And when you think that everyone hates you, remember that:
-most of the times it is just in your mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-you have the right to exist so you can go anywhere you want to, and do what you want to do (as long as you don't hurt others of course)
-and even if 3 or 4 people really hate you, just let them do (you don't need their support, there are millions of other people in this world who can be nice to you if you give them a chance)
Thank you all for hearing me!!!!!!!
Diana