Dumbest thing you've ever done because of SA
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Scrabbl
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In some ways I have less inhibitions around people but i'm also more conscious about what they might think about me. so I'd say it makes my SA worse.
Doesnt weed make you paranoid in the long run? I heard that somewhere.
redski
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That is exactly what I have felt for the few years I have been struggling
with university. I think if I had a girlfriend and more of a life
I would probably have something to keep me going instead I have to fight with negative feelings
and I think depression that just makes it all harder for me.
I have loads of stories about stupid SA things I have done that I have repressed I think,
because I know of them but I cannot remember them in detail.
One bigger thing is (still uncertain) is mess up with a women that was interested in me as
I was in her because I was under the suspicion that she was playing games when in fact she
could of have had SA herself now that I look back at it.
May be that was not the case and I was being played and am a hopless
optimist.
hangbi92
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When I was a kid, I stood in front of my friend house`s door for an hour and then went home.
And when I was in high school, I couldnot bear standing in a crowd of students so I even hided in the toilet.
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And yeah I think I look suspicious and look like a robber or something
And when I was in high school, I couldnot bear standing in a crowd of students so I even hided in the toilet.
(And yeah I think I look suspicious and look like a robber or something
hangbi92
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Today morning I was late for school and when my teacher didnt pay attention, I quickly run into my seat 'cause I didnt want to stop and say hello to her and everone would look at me. And after some minutes, the teacher realized I was in the class and she asked my when I was there. She said it was like a ninja stealth. I didnt know to say anything but only smiled reluctanly. And every student in the class look at me and started discussing about me. I think everyone was disgusted by me. And then I sat like stone for the rest of the lesson
thecinderfly
Active member
man too many to list, i had this great opportunity to have art college classes at home when i was sixteen but i would get stuck and i was too shy to use the phone to call them for help(i hate phones,i get extremely nervous when i have to talk on one unless its a really close family member)well anyways i dropped out of that, i skipped plenty of school , i even hid out in an empty trailer house one morning to avoid going, got caught tho();
when i was eighteen i dropped out of high school(some because of SA and other problems too) i avoid talking to people, if i run into any of old my school mates or people i used to know, i look off as if i didn't see them or run the other way and occasionally since i am a clutz i run into something and bring more attention to myself (>_<)
i could go on with this but im going to stop now (-_-')
btw im new here so 'ello everyone ^^
);when i was eighteen i dropped out of high school(some because of SA and other problems too) i avoid talking to people, if i run into any of old my school mates or people i used to know, i look off as if i didn't see them or run the other way and occasionally since i am a clutz i run into something and bring more attention to myself (>_<)
i could go on with this but im going to stop now (-_-')
btw im new here so 'ello everyone ^^
I remember this feeling...........
although I think everyone here should be able to relate because this is a social anxiety forum afterall.
terrible....but sometimes they aren't discussing you, we're just programmed to think they are because we think so lowly of ourselves.
hangbi92
Well-known member
I know that people are not always discussing about me but Im sure that some of them gradually think badly of me and start to stay away from me. Now I can see more and more despising look from the others. AT this rate idk if I can continue to go to school.
And one more story just happened: I just received the Honor Roll status for my achievement in study yesterday. All the Honor Roll students are called to gather in the cafeteria. I should have been happy but all I could feel was depression and pressure. I couldnt even hold my head up and look at other people. I just sat still and envied their happiness. My friend even had to go get my certification leter and give it to me. One of my best day turned to be one of the worst. I wonder why I just couldnt feel happy
market.garden
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I've turned down jobs a few times because I've freaked out. That's probably the most stupid thing I've done. Sorta deliberately self destructive.
Newtype
Well-known member
I've been looking at this topic for days, not knowing what to write. It's not like I've ever done anything right in my life. The dumbest thing I've ever done is never being myself, always acting around people, always following everyone around instead of doing my own thing and not discovering what I'm capable of.
future marine214
Member
Im 18, a senior in high school, and and am now isolating myself in my house too. I need some kind of advise on what to do now, before i throw my opportunities away. You said you did research, and i was wondering if you could pass some of your knowledge to me.
future marine214
Member
I know exactly what your talking about, and i've also had a very bad experence taking tabs one night (dumb idea). It had opposite effects on me, and i couldnt talk at all. I kept thinking everything i was gonna say was the WRONG thing to say.
Lost Girl
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The dumbest and most regrettable thing I have ever done is when I completely stood up my half-sister for her 21st Birthday party. She invited me 6 months in advance - hand delivered the invitation and all, and my anxiety just got the better of me on the day. I had my dress, her gift, and my mother bought my daughter a dress to wear there...but hundreds of people were in attendance and I just completely freaked out thinking about it. My mother was in tears apparently because I hadn't shown up. She kept calling me the whole day and I just got my partner to tell her that I was too sick to come. I wouldn't even talk on the phone! Completely weak. It is one of my biggest regrets ::.
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hangbi92
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maybe you need some anti depressants
i think i have depression too but i dont want to take medicine. Ive never liked medicine.
Today was so awful . I was so depressed that I skipped my first three periods at school, lying on the bed. The last period I had to force myself to go to school 'cause I had to do a very important presentation that occupied a high percentage of my term mark. And I was so nervous that I looked down at my paper all the time and stuttered. I finally completed it but when I returned to my seat, I could clearly heard everyone saying stuff about me like: "This guy probably has problem" and even " This guy is crazy. He must have Social Anxiety Disorder" (at least there was this guy understand what happened to me). Then the bell rang and I went home as fast as I could to return to my room, my own small space where I can feel comfortable.