ChrystaR
Well-known member
There is a reason I am posting this in the New Zealand forum which I will explain. This is kinda a little personal rant.
I live in Arizona. It's dry, hot, brown and to me, down right ugly. There are parts of AZ that are better, especially the Northern part of the state, but the population goes down and gets a little too 'small town-y' for me. We hardly get any rain, which I hate because I love rain so much, probably because we don't get any. About six inches a year! The only thing I like about it here is the mild winter and the Monsoon rain in the summer that provide really nice sunsets.
Anyway, I grew up watching the tv show Xena and just recently watched all of the show Hercules which I'm sure New Zealander's probably know were both filmed in NZ. I always loved the beautiful scenery in the show and have again fallen in love with it. It's so green and lush and beautiful. Beaches and forest and waterfalls. It's amazing. I just recently looked up what the weather is like there and oh my god it's perfect! I would love that so much!
So, to my point! I feel that living here in this dry and hot place (usually triple digits all summer) with no rain and limited green and natural beauty is making me sad. Now, it taps into a lot of feelings for me. I have always hated the heat and how ugly it is here, I have always loved lush, green beauty. I crave it. I literally ache for it! Just seeing it makes me feel good, the beauty the romance of nature and rain. Just on days that it rains here I feel energized, far more full of life than normal. So knowing that beauty like that is out there in the world, and that people like you get to live there, to see that everyday (yes, I'm sure there is a difference between city and rural, but you get what I mean) and that I can't have it just kills me. I fear that I will never get away from this city, my family lives here and I could never move away from them and I could never move someplace by myself. And I fear that I will never have the money to travel to these places of beauty, and never be able to get over my anxiety enough to enjoy traveling like I should.
In conclusion, I know that the rain and green make me happy and the dry and heat make me sad. I try to push it away because in a way it is such a trivial thing, but then it kind of really isn't.
Are you effected by your environment? Does it make you happy or sad?
I live in Arizona. It's dry, hot, brown and to me, down right ugly. There are parts of AZ that are better, especially the Northern part of the state, but the population goes down and gets a little too 'small town-y' for me. We hardly get any rain, which I hate because I love rain so much, probably because we don't get any. About six inches a year! The only thing I like about it here is the mild winter and the Monsoon rain in the summer that provide really nice sunsets.
Anyway, I grew up watching the tv show Xena and just recently watched all of the show Hercules which I'm sure New Zealander's probably know were both filmed in NZ. I always loved the beautiful scenery in the show and have again fallen in love with it. It's so green and lush and beautiful. Beaches and forest and waterfalls. It's amazing. I just recently looked up what the weather is like there and oh my god it's perfect! I would love that so much!
So, to my point! I feel that living here in this dry and hot place (usually triple digits all summer) with no rain and limited green and natural beauty is making me sad. Now, it taps into a lot of feelings for me. I have always hated the heat and how ugly it is here, I have always loved lush, green beauty. I crave it. I literally ache for it! Just seeing it makes me feel good, the beauty the romance of nature and rain. Just on days that it rains here I feel energized, far more full of life than normal. So knowing that beauty like that is out there in the world, and that people like you get to live there, to see that everyday (yes, I'm sure there is a difference between city and rural, but you get what I mean) and that I can't have it just kills me. I fear that I will never get away from this city, my family lives here and I could never move away from them and I could never move someplace by myself. And I fear that I will never have the money to travel to these places of beauty, and never be able to get over my anxiety enough to enjoy traveling like I should.
In conclusion, I know that the rain and green make me happy and the dry and heat make me sad. I try to push it away because in a way it is such a trivial thing, but then it kind of really isn't.
Are you effected by your environment? Does it make you happy or sad?