Do you find your online friendships fulfilling? For me it's like eating a chocolate chip cookie when what I really want is a piece of chocolate cake. They're both sweet and yummy, but the cake has so much more chocolate and is just that much more satisfying.
Well, I was always more of a cookie person than a cake person but this isn't about desserts, is it?

Um, no, online friendships are fulfilling up to a point. At the end of the chat, I am still alone, with no on to go watch a movie with, so I always have to wait till they come out on DVD to watch alone in my room...
I used to be able to make friends. But that seems like so long ago. And even then I had trouble opening up and fully being myself. You see, online, I can be the girl I want to be and I like that. By that I don't mean I make up this fabulous life for myself and
lie. Oh, no, I just put it all out there. I am
me. I always have such a hard time expressing myself verbally, mispronouncing all sorts of words embarrassing myself; I am better at writing. I also seem to find people I have things in common with online more easily than I can IRL. But maybe that is because I spend more time with my computer than actual people...
I make friends online because it is better to type to a computer screen than talk to a wall. The wall doesn't say
anything. I am friends with two girls I met online. I have communicated with them for years, via text messages and FB and sometimes e-mail. They are awesome. Gems. Will we ever meet up in real life and make our friendships valid, I don't know. I sure hope so. I would like both of them at my wedding (if I ever get married that is). I just don't see how I can make friends in real life now. My situation at the moment doesn't really allow for that. But I am open to suggestions!
