I only want to adopt children. I'm pretty sure I want between 5-7. I also want to be a foster parent. But I don't want to adopt babies. I want to adopt older children, because not only is it cheaper, but they need a permanent place and love. My only worry is that some of them may have severe metal issues (which is nothing I couldn't deal with) and the bonding between us would be strained. I am slightly worried, well...my children won't love me. I am also worried that some children have been raised to be hateful towards people of different races or sexuality, and that it may be very, very hard to change them. But a part of me still thinks that is why these children need permanent homes and love even MORE. I have grown up full of foster children around me, and often, their parents were at least emotionally abusive because they did not know how to handle someone who is a bit sensitive or depression, let alone more severe problems. And being that I was adopted by my legal father who hated me because I wasn't his own blood, I want to show children that blood doesn't matter. Luckily I have my sister, who is my half sister, but she is exactly like me personality wise. So I will have support at least from her and my future wife/husband. But, I refuse to raise children until I KNOW I will not put them through abuse or neglect because I can't take care of myself. I have a long, long way to go.