I hate it. So much. The combination of the deep and the inaudible voice is probably the most worst thing a girl (or at least me) could have. It's the cause for my SA, god.
Most of the people I've talked to, will definitely say that I'm too softspoken; way too soft for them to hear clearly. I get 'what?' alot when I speak with others, so my mind's pretty much built a mental block whenever I try to talk, like 5-second hesitations, sweating buckets, heart pumping rapidly...
For years, it's been saying to me: "what's the point of talking if others can't even f'cking hear you, you little b'tch..." So I now just mind my own business, and live my life in solitude, talking only when necessary (My face has frozen into emotionless state...) I can't be too sad about not having any (reliable) friends; it's my fault, after all.
When I get nervous, I'll stutter if I try to talk louder. Unfortunately, my speaking 'disorder' has finally revealed itself to my classmates, and I'm pretty sure they're either see me as the pitiful loner or the softspoken retard. I'm the perfect punching bag, honestly.
I feel so ashamed that I let my ice-queen persona crumble down so easily by just speaking. My self-esteem and mental well-being is in the critical zone with my weak voice...
For my deep tone, others think that my voice is very deep for a girl...even worse, some think I sound like a boy, for god's sake.
I agree that my voice is deep; I've heard it when I tried recording my voice a few years ago. Personally I find that my voice is like a woman in her twenties (my voice doesn't suit my face, that's for sure)...I'm not sure why I sound different when I don't hear myself from a recording.