Even if I wanted to act, I don't have the courage to act. When in groups, I'm the guy that sits or stands by himself and doesn't know what to say. Any kind of group situation is awkward and uncomfortable for me. I think the fact that there are so many people acting in society it makes me sick. I understand courteously smiling when someone tries to tell a bad joke, but some people take acting to a whole different level. I hate it when guys try to pretend a woman they are talking to is funny just because they are trying to get laid and win points, the same goes for when a woman does that with a guy. I had a girl do this to me before after I heard one of my friends say she wanted to do stuff with me I noticed that she was laughing at the stuff i was saying that wasn't even funny really. I can't stand how fake that is. I wish people would be honest with their emotions and thoughts. When that girl did that, I didn't see her as a girl I wanted to go out with, I saw a girl who just wanted to have sex with me and didn't care about the real me. I hate how sex is so powerful that people will put on an act to try to flatter someone and pretend they are funny and interesting. I just want people to recognize people for who the person doing the recognizing honestly thinks about the other person. We shouldn't need to pretend to laugh at someone's terrible jokes to have them like us, they should like us for who we really are.
