Diary/journal thing (can't think of a witty title)
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emre43
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I think I have realised why I have SP. I am reluctant to leave my inner child behind. Everything that makes me anxious is related to growing up. Getting a girlfriend makes me anxious, intimacy makes me anxious, getting a job makes me anxious, socialising makes me anxious along with many other things. The one thing that they all have in common is that they are all things that we associate with growing up. The transition from child to adult. I mentioned this to my counsellor right at the end of our session (so we barely got to talk about it - hopefully next week) but she said it's because my mum cared for me so much as a child that I am reluctant to let her see me growing up. My inner child has developed but not evolved. I wonder if this is the same with other people on here. I think anxiety is the body's way of telling us that we don't want something - we just don't realise the full story of that.
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emre43
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I don't really know what I want to do in life. I am not sure what my occupation should be. I am considering studying counselling but it takes ages to start from the ground up to get to the point in which you qualify and I don't think I have the patience and drive to sit down and study, I lose the will and determination to carry on reading and find it difficult to gain the motivation to do so (ADHD???).
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emre43
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I told my nan that I was "sad missed a girl and her response was "Oh my god, this is Tom isn't it?" With a girl?" "Last night?". I thought 'what do you mean last night?'.
As the conversation progressed, I repeated that I felt "sad". And she responded by saying "Oh, I thought you said shagged" lol.
I can see the funny side. But at the same time it upset me a lot that she was so shocked that somebody like me was capable of love.
As the conversation progressed, I repeated that I felt "sad". And she responded by saying "Oh, I thought you said shagged" lol.
I can see the funny side. But at the same time it upset me a lot that she was so shocked that somebody like me was capable of love.
emre43
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My nan is so annoying. She just phoned my mum and said it's about time he got a girlfriend. I don't even have one, she just misinterpreted what I said. Sometimes I wish my nan would just piss off. I hate the way that she speaks about me and the discussions she is going to have with relatives about me over this.
emre43
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I met a girl who is the same age as me. I like her and get on really well with her and I think she likes me. I am still a virgin and really want to get that monkey off my back, however, I don't really fancy her. In a way I want to date her so that I can have sex, but at the same time I really admire her as a person and don't want to use her as a means to an end. She's a really nice person that I have connected to, but I just don't fancy her. I don't know what to do.
If you truly do admire her, don't disrespect her then. Would you like to be strung along to be used?
emre43
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No, I wouldn't, you're right.