da_illest101
Well-known member
yes I think I made it, I haven't had a panic attack, depression, scared of people in over 2 months now, it's actually by far the longest time i have been SA free since I got SA 11 years ago. My personality can't change and i'm still lonely but i'm coping with it very well. I'm also more sociable and less stressed
Unfortunately I can't find the thread who help me but it basically said to stop thinking you have SA, it's only a fabrication of your imagination. sound simple but it is very hard to apply but somehow I manage to do it, I simply stop focusing on it, and use it as an excuse for all my problems in life. I stopped reading some of the negative stuff on this site, stopped thinking about suicide, and just forget about the fact that SA even existed. The hard part is to put aside all the negativity, frustration, pain, sadness of the past 11 years behind and not thinking of it. Bad memories will never help you improved your condition.
also one thing i realized is that if your expect your life to just fall into place because you don't have SA your just gonna fail. Yes not having SA can greatly improve your life, but if it doesn't at least you solve one problem.
One thing that surprised me is how my personality didn't change. I'm still negative, shy and i rather stay quiet then talk to everyone but the difference now I can control it. If I want to talk nothing is holding me back anymore, to anyone even a complete stranger.
so yea this my story, if it can help at least one person then I did my job. good luck everyone, it's one hell of a battle but the victory is so sweet
Unfortunately I can't find the thread who help me but it basically said to stop thinking you have SA, it's only a fabrication of your imagination. sound simple but it is very hard to apply but somehow I manage to do it, I simply stop focusing on it, and use it as an excuse for all my problems in life. I stopped reading some of the negative stuff on this site, stopped thinking about suicide, and just forget about the fact that SA even existed. The hard part is to put aside all the negativity, frustration, pain, sadness of the past 11 years behind and not thinking of it. Bad memories will never help you improved your condition.
also one thing i realized is that if your expect your life to just fall into place because you don't have SA your just gonna fail. Yes not having SA can greatly improve your life, but if it doesn't at least you solve one problem.
One thing that surprised me is how my personality didn't change. I'm still negative, shy and i rather stay quiet then talk to everyone but the difference now I can control it. If I want to talk nothing is holding me back anymore, to anyone even a complete stranger.
so yea this my story, if it can help at least one person then I did my job. good luck everyone, it's one hell of a battle but the victory is so sweet