The people who post here often must be Saints to put up with posts like this one...haha.
I've all but given up on the idea of "being cured" and lately I have come to the realization that I don't want to be cured, because I don't want to be "one of them". I would love to be able to find someone like me one day, where it would just be the 2 of us, and the rest of the world could just go to hell
I would love to be able to find someone like me one day, where it would just be the 2 of us, and the rest of the world could just go to hell. Its a strange dream to have, but one that I am content with, because I just cant stand this world. Rather then continue to live in this isolation, I would like to rescue someone from theirs and be happy together without needing the worlds acceptance...
Yeah, same here. I feel I need to find some new friends that are more like me and can accept me for who I am. And the same goes for a girlfriend. But the biggest problem is, where do I find someone like me? Where do I find someone who actually likes me? Where and how? It's not easy at all.
I have tried to be optimistic these days, but when you see that the world is actually "mean", it's so difficult to keep coping. Sometimes I am even afraid that it's not me who is too pessimistic... it's the others who are too optimistic. What if I am actually right and the optimists are wrong? That's something that scares me.
Why are we pessimistic? Because we have learned to do so. But was that really a wrong lesson? Or were we taught the truth? I was bullied too when I was in school. Well, what I learned from that is that weak people are always taken advantage of, and almost always the nice people around just pretend not to see and they don't help, because it's easier to act that way. That was the lesson my brain learned, and that makes me be pessimistic I guess. But is it wrong? Is it a negative false thought that CBT would try to correct? I am afraid it's not a negative thought, and that it's actually how things work in reality. And it's so sad.
I've all but given up on the idea of "being cured" and lately I have come to the realization that I don't want to be cured, because I don't want to be "one of them". I would love to be able to find someone like me one day, where it would just be the 2 of us, and the rest of the world could just go to hell. Its a strange dream to have, but one that I am content with, because I just cant stand this world. Rather then continue to live in this isolation, I would like to rescue someone from theirs and be happy together without needing the worlds acceptance...
Well anyway, that about sums it up. There is a lot more to my issues, but I will leave it at that for now. The people who post here often must be Saints to put up with posts like this one...haha.
Honestly, I think school shootings are a good thing. I saw that documentary on Columbine, it was kinda entertaining. They shot the assholes, spared the good people. It both could send a message to bullies in the future, so they may not do it. Also, it'll bring more attention to the bullying issue. People kill themselves over it, they kill others over it. So hopefully, one day, it'll get so bad where SOMEBODY DOES SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I was almost happy when a while back I kept hearing about this like, almost every week. I remember on CNN they said they had like 1 school shooting for every week in that month. So maybe, one day, it can stop. Far from it though.
Yea, I know how bullying is, I've spent about 4 years in the house, only leaveing for counseling, mostly because of that, and I'm only 18. I even dropped out before the legal age to drop out in the USA.
Honestly, I think school shootings are a good thing. I saw that documentary on Columbine, it was kinda entertaining. They shot the assholes, spared the good people. It both could send a message to bullies in the future, so they may not do it. Also, it'll bring more attention to the bullying issue. People kill themselves over it, they kill others over it. So hopefully, one day, it'll get so bad where SOMEBODY DOES SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I was almost happy when a while back I kept hearing about this like, almost every week. I remember on CNN they said they had like 1 school shooting for every week in that month. So maybe, one day, it can stop. Far from it though.
Also, it's rather annoying how them bullies will most likely end up to be successful.
Bad person = successful life
It gives people confidence, then they get farther in life, while SUCKING the confidence from other people. It's really horrible. I'm really hoping this damn world ends at some time. I don't see a reason for humanity to exist. We just kill animals, planets, and even ourselves, just no logic behind it.
I spent all of 9th & 10th grade, fantasizing about killing about 12-15 kids (and the 3 that jumped me were on that list). They were the most heartless people I had ever known, and I wanted to kill them so bad, but I never did and I am glad I didn't. I would be drowning in regret if I had.