today I went and got my hair done, Its a nice wee girly treat for myself once every month, getting my hair washed by someone else and styled and my confidence increases. The woman doing my hair today was so nice, she asked if I wanted a cup of tea and was asking me questions and chatting to me, at first I was fine answering yes or no but then I said something and she looked at me weirdly, then I started to go over everything I said, I noticed I started sweating due to anxiety and i started feeling so awkward and then noticed i started to about my partner and that i'm exicted to move in with him and other random things bout my partner and realised in the space of 5 minutes i just told a random stranger that i didn't know bout my boyfriend and me, i paniced and he was the first thing that i thought bout to talk about. i found it so awkward, and that look they give you i hate it, my hair turned out amazing just how i imagined it but i felt so self conscious and awkward so for the last fifteens minutes of my appointment i just sat slient, i must of looked so rude but my hair was amazing and at the end i had got myself all nervous and anxiety was up through the roof that what came out my mouth i didn't even hear i just blacked out....
:kickingmyself::kickingmyself:simple conversations that are easy for other people just aren't easy for me, i heard other peoples conversations with the other hairdressers and they all flowed and weren't awkward. I found it awkward because i am new to that hairdressers and the one i usually go to is back at home and im living away from home now and i don't see the point of travelling all the way home to get my hair done, but my old hairdressers was a sister of one of my friends so she knew me pretty well so it was easy to talk to her because i knew her.
:kickingmyself::kickingmyself:simple conversations that are easy for other people just aren't easy for me, i heard other peoples conversations with the other hairdressers and they all flowed and weren't awkward. I found it awkward because i am new to that hairdressers and the one i usually go to is back at home and im living away from home now and i don't see the point of travelling all the way home to get my hair done, but my old hairdressers was a sister of one of my friends so she knew me pretty well so it was easy to talk to her because i knew her.