Siren
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So my latest example of shameful avoidance happened about 5 minutes ago (I'm in school right now). I got out of class early and I was walking nearly deserted halls when I saw 2 boys hanging out in the hall. I was doing my usual of just acting like they don't exist (and I wonder why I don't have a boyfriend. Ha!) and I could see they were looking at me, so I was trying to walk faster. As I got closer, one of them said, "Hey." and I completely ignored him, I'm fairly certain I actually literally put my nose in the air a little bit. It was horrible. And as I kept walking past them, one boy said to the other, "That was cold; she didn't even nod at us."
I felt awful, I don't want to be this way. Immediately I think everyone's making fun of me or is going to harass me, which I don't even think these boys were trying to do, I just put on the defense right away, I don't trust people, and my "defense" is avoidance and unacknowledgement.
So many people think I'm "cold" and "aloof" but I can't seem to stop myself.
I felt awful, I don't want to be this way. Immediately I think everyone's making fun of me or is going to harass me, which I don't even think these boys were trying to do, I just put on the defense right away, I don't trust people, and my "defense" is avoidance and unacknowledgement.
So many people think I'm "cold" and "aloof" but I can't seem to stop myself.