Be a friend, a teacher, a supporter, a pain in the ass, anything that gets you noticed.
i entertain these thoughts from time to time
and then I remember that it simply doesn't matter whether anyone else takes notice of my existence
I'm living my life for ME - not for them
^ I definitely feel this too. Sometimes I feel like my friends aren't really my "true" friends. I talk to them, but some days I feel like maybe I'm not worth it. That they'd rather not listen to me, but they do so anyway just because they must feel sorry for me or something.I feel like this when I'm low. I do know that my family would miss me - but I then worry that my friends wouldn't care. Like I am some burden to them and they'd be glad not to have me around.
^ Definitely with you on this one. I never could quite grasp why most men feel they can't express their emotions. I'd rather a guy be sensitive and totally open then to keep it all bottled up... But then again, I keep everything bottled up and I never express myself, and I'm a chick. :XI wish men were more expressive with there emotions and how they feel about people - they don't say stuff like "we are good friends" or are they meant to?
^ I definitely feel this too. Sometimes I feel like my friends aren't really my "true" friends. I talk to them, but some days I feel like maybe I'm not worth it. That they'd rather not listen to me, but they do so anyway.
Unfortunately lately I've had a falling out with one friend, and she clearly doesn't care. I tried to make it work, even confronted her about her attitude, and well, it didn't work. She tries to tell me that I'm "her best friend" but she hardly speaks a word to me. And when she does, it's only to tease me, talk about her boyfriend, or lie to me. >.> I shouldn't worry about it, I should know I'm probably better off not being around her. Sorry for rambling on about that. Just needed to vent.
^ Yeah, this friend I was dealing with was my friend for 6 years. I'm just realizing how much she has lied to me, and she even talked about me behind my back a little bit. :I can definitely relate to that! My best of nearly a decade was a liar and gossip, ditched his sorry behind and never looked back. Why bother with people like that? Eish.
^ Yeah, this friend I was dealing with was my friend for 6 years. I'm just realizing how much she has lied to me, and she even talked about me behind my back a little bit. :: And I'm usually very cautious of these things, and pretty good at telling when people are lying. I just feel so stupid that I believed what she told me. Yeah, I definitely don't want to deal with people like that again.
^ Yes, gotta admit she was a really good liar. And those definitely are real killers.Don't feel bad about it. Nobody can be a perfect judge of character, particularly when you are dealing with a skilled master of deceit! Gossip and paranoia are real killers, especially for us.
@coyote: No person is an island. I think most people have the need to socialize.. I mean if you're really someone who doesn't work (or can't find a job), have difficulty keeping friends... etc...