I dropped out in my first yr of highschool. I was transferred to a new schol away from all my friends because i lived in a different area of the city.
First yr of highschool and completley alone, i had such an overwhelming fear, and i didnt udnerstand how everyone else just seemed so...normal. I didnt do gym class, because of what happened in a different incendent in another school, because i didnt like changing with other people, so i skipped all the time, got kicked out, panicked, and didnt tell my dad for 6 months. So for the next 6 months, he would think i was at school, when in reality, i would do whatever i had to to be out of the house when he might be home from work before i was supposed to get home from school. Ride the city transit busses all over town, or the train, or go for very long walks, or whatever. My anxiety of telling him, as well as the anxiety of going, kept me so scared i couldnt say anything. The more time went on, the longer i felt like i was digging my own grave.
Eventually, during the 2nd semester, my highschool that i should have been transferred to, called my dad asking me if i would be coming back that semester. Thats when he found out. And man...talk about a sh!tstorm....
He basically forced me into a meeting with him, the principal, vice prinical, school cop, and guidance counselor, who basically all told me how bad i was, what path i was going down, ect ect. I quietly felt this was a bit overblown, while i admit not attenting was not a good thing, i never did drugs or drank, i never even smoked ffs!. So they made me sign a "Contract" saying i woudl go and be a good little boy, i think t hey did that just to try to make me feel like an equal but in reality you just know theres nothing yuo can do.
What gets me, to this day, is no one ever asked me "why" i dropped out, and never said anything. Maybe i wouldve said somthing, the truth, maybe i wouldnt. Maybe it wouldve gotten me the help i needed years sooner.
Just makes me shake my head. If my kids do somthing like that, im not gonna talk, im going to listen instead.