ok, heres the deal, ill try to make it short and sum things up..
1-im in my mid 30s, have a good job, stay in shape bit its all for nothing.
2-i have good social skills but i have recently come to the conclusion that socializing is something i simply dont or cannot enjoy..even with friends that have same interests after about 20 minutes of talking, my brain starts to fal asleep and i look for a way to get out of the situation.no amount of training or medication has helped this, in fact as i get older, i have gotten worse
3-since i lack ability to enjoy simple conversations i AVOID everyone if at all possible..i avoid family if i see them out and about..obviously people take this as me being an unfriendly person and i see their point but in reality, i just cannot force myself to socialize like normal people do.
4-i make friends quite easily as i can put on a great social mask..problem is, im about as outgoing as a slug..in reality i dont enjoy going out to clubs or bars or many other places...i have had many friends come in and out of my life and im now at the point where i might have 1-2 old friends i talk to.i have found that i simply dont have much to say anymore to these people and i dont like doing much so whats the point?however, this is where it gets weird, im not lonely but i also realize that the life im living seems off and that i should change, but how?
5-i must be the only male in in this world who thinks hooking up with a girl and having sex is overrated..i dont mean to brag but girls tend to like me but when i hook up with them, something is missing, the human connection.i get very little enjoyment out of hooking up with a girl and drinking, having sex etc etc..this again alienates me from most other men as thats all they live for but for me, its ehh..
6-i dont feel close to anyone in this life even though i have a very loving family..it doesnt matter how long i have been around someone, that 'click' never really happens and the bond never forms.
7-i enjoy very little in this life..i hate to say it but most days i just trudge through it to get to the end of the day..daydreaming is ok but for the most part, i just pass the time.
im not sure if im avoidant, schizoid, broken, if this is just who i am or what..just curious if anyone else out there is like me..
1-im in my mid 30s, have a good job, stay in shape bit its all for nothing.
2-i have good social skills but i have recently come to the conclusion that socializing is something i simply dont or cannot enjoy..even with friends that have same interests after about 20 minutes of talking, my brain starts to fal asleep and i look for a way to get out of the situation.no amount of training or medication has helped this, in fact as i get older, i have gotten worse
3-since i lack ability to enjoy simple conversations i AVOID everyone if at all possible..i avoid family if i see them out and about..obviously people take this as me being an unfriendly person and i see their point but in reality, i just cannot force myself to socialize like normal people do.
4-i make friends quite easily as i can put on a great social mask..problem is, im about as outgoing as a slug..in reality i dont enjoy going out to clubs or bars or many other places...i have had many friends come in and out of my life and im now at the point where i might have 1-2 old friends i talk to.i have found that i simply dont have much to say anymore to these people and i dont like doing much so whats the point?however, this is where it gets weird, im not lonely but i also realize that the life im living seems off and that i should change, but how?
5-i must be the only male in in this world who thinks hooking up with a girl and having sex is overrated..i dont mean to brag but girls tend to like me but when i hook up with them, something is missing, the human connection.i get very little enjoyment out of hooking up with a girl and drinking, having sex etc etc..this again alienates me from most other men as thats all they live for but for me, its ehh..
6-i dont feel close to anyone in this life even though i have a very loving family..it doesnt matter how long i have been around someone, that 'click' never really happens and the bond never forms.
7-i enjoy very little in this life..i hate to say it but most days i just trudge through it to get to the end of the day..daydreaming is ok but for the most part, i just pass the time.
im not sure if im avoidant, schizoid, broken, if this is just who i am or what..just curious if anyone else out there is like me..