I am a very jealous person for the most part. I hate it because I truly feel that jealousy and anger and hate and negativity all go hand-in-hand together.
I'm jealous of almost everyone:
I have been jealous of a good number of people, but I also recognize that I am fortunate compared to many others, too. This will always be a constant battle, though. Even if I look at the brightside and the things I should be grateful for, I think it's still human nature to want more.
I'm jealous of people in relationships:
Yes, I am still a bit jealous of this. And sadly, I get jealous of other couples when I am in a relationship, too! Maybe it is because I have low-self esteem and wonder why people ever like me or if they really love me like they say they do. So, if I see a happy looking couple - I wonder if my relationship is just as genuine.
I'm jealous of that most people are social:
Yes and no. I'd be lying to say that I don't want to be more social. But, at the same time, I am also proud that I am a little different in a world full of extroverts. I think we actually need more quiet, introvert personalities.There is nothing wrong with having a low social threshold. I think we become jealous of social peoples opportunities more so than who they are: perhaps they are better at smooth talking in an interview or workplace, etc. I do like that they are more at ease in a social situation and can say what they want. I would not mind being quiet - as long as I was completely comfortable with myself and talked with ease when I wanted to say something. I'd much prefer quiet confidence and charm over being extremely social with nothing good to say. It's my anxious quietness that bothers me.
I'm jealous of my family and how they are all normal but i have to live with this disorder:
This bothers me as well. My mom's side of the family (not all of them, but a good number) are quiet, while my dad's side is loud and outgoing to an extreme. I think to myself, "I couldn't have inherited at least some of their vibrant personality and humour. Not even half?"
I'm jealous of people who die by choice or not:
I can't exactly say I am jealous about this. Though, I guess I would be jealous if the person had led a happy, fun, worthwhile life and then died. If I was on my deathbed right now, then I would be totally jealous of those who died having actually lived life to their fullest. And I guess there is a tint of jealosuy knowing that their troubles are over. But, you also must keep in mind that some have missed out on life (whether they died early or just died miserable or old.) They can't have the opportunity for things to get even better. We can.