i don't know how serious my suicidal thoughts are.. most of the time, i'll just think "i'll never be able to live normally, i'll never be happy, i'd rather not be here" ..i don't have any social anxiety problems, i just have agoraphobia issues and anxiety when being in public.. it really sucks because when i'm feeling down, i'll think about all of the things i might never get to do.. i really want to go to school, find someone, have a job, be happy, do something i love, but i feel like because of the agoraphobia i'll never get there..... i just kind of have to make myself snap out of it and have some hope. i know that thinking negatively only breeds negative outcome, so i just try to keep my head up.. i dream of better things in my future and have some hope and faith that i can make them happen.. that's how i've come this far, guess i can't just give up from where i'm standing...