I never liked clubbing. Never at all. But I had times when I felt really isolated and I went with some friends, just trying socialize myself and not being so alone.
I just can't see the point of it. And I don't see the fun in drinking, smoking and all this paraphernalia. Many times I just went like if it was an cientific experiment, seeing how people act and taking it as a challenge to get involved. But I could never be part of it. I could succeed acting like them and being part of it in appearence, but I never felt comfortable nor part of anything. It's like a robot that has learnt to act like people and nobody know it's robot, but it is, and it can't feel anything, just look like if it does.
All these clubbing places looked to me like prehistoric rituals, where people dance to the rythm of some "music" just to get paired.
I never felt more loner than clubbing, and I never felt so strange than surrounded by so much people.