MsBuzzkillington
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Another person deleted me off their facebook friends. Big freaking surprise.
The part that sucks, is a few months ago, I really considered this person a close friend. I felt like her and her boyfriend were the only two true friends I had left. Her boyfriend, my other good friend, has OCD, so he can relate to me with having social issues.
I was helping them with some things and it got to the point where I was anxious all day, everyday. I tried talking to my friend (the guy) about it, but he told me he didn't want any drama. I kept trying to talk to his girlfriend, but she just wasn't getting it. One night I snapped and just told her how it wasn't fair how she was doing this and that, and she got mad at me and told me to talk to "Bob" and BLOCKED me on skype.
For awhile I was really upset about it. I mean, I felt betrayed too. The fact that she just got upset with me and then never talked to me about it. How I was struggling for so many months and just, that happened. She just ditched me. No one even asked why, no one even asked what happened. My friend told me he just didn't want to talk about it because he didn't want to ruin the friendship. When I was absolutely dying inside, the fact that he didn't talk about it, is probably what ruined the friendship.
I am going home for the holiday, and I am not going to tell any of my "friends" that I am going to be in town. No one gives a crap anyway. No one cares about me anymore, no one talks to me anymore. It's just *goodbye* *delete, delete, delete*
I am so lonely. I am so depressed. I hate myself.
I want one person to write me and ask me how I am doing. I want one person to tell me that they appreciate me. I want one person to be thankful I am in their lives.
I don't know how to make the effort to talk to people anymore, because they all are just going to leave.
The part that sucks, is a few months ago, I really considered this person a close friend. I felt like her and her boyfriend were the only two true friends I had left. Her boyfriend, my other good friend, has OCD, so he can relate to me with having social issues.
I was helping them with some things and it got to the point where I was anxious all day, everyday. I tried talking to my friend (the guy) about it, but he told me he didn't want any drama. I kept trying to talk to his girlfriend, but she just wasn't getting it. One night I snapped and just told her how it wasn't fair how she was doing this and that, and she got mad at me and told me to talk to "Bob" and BLOCKED me on skype.
For awhile I was really upset about it. I mean, I felt betrayed too. The fact that she just got upset with me and then never talked to me about it. How I was struggling for so many months and just, that happened. She just ditched me. No one even asked why, no one even asked what happened. My friend told me he just didn't want to talk about it because he didn't want to ruin the friendship. When I was absolutely dying inside, the fact that he didn't talk about it, is probably what ruined the friendship.
I am going home for the holiday, and I am not going to tell any of my "friends" that I am going to be in town. No one gives a crap anyway. No one cares about me anymore, no one talks to me anymore. It's just *goodbye* *delete, delete, delete*
I am so lonely. I am so depressed. I hate myself.
I want one person to write me and ask me how I am doing. I want one person to tell me that they appreciate me. I want one person to be thankful I am in their lives.
I don't know how to make the effort to talk to people anymore, because they all are just going to leave.