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  1. DebbieDowner

    hating birthdays

    i hate my birthday.
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    I built us a chat site!

    Hey everyone, Since chatbox has been pretty much abandoned and I've read some of the things you guys would like in an spw chat, I decided to build us a website with five separate flash-based chatrooms (SA, OCD, HH, Depression and Open chat). It's just a test run for now, but if you guys like it...
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    What the heck is IRC Chat?

    Does it work? Has anyone ever used it before? I'm confused.
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    Come to Chatbox!!!

    Come on, I'm ready to hold a candlelight vigil in mourning for poor lonely chatbox! Don't let it die!
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    fear of all things ceremonial

    i've realized i have a fear of any event in which i have to perform specific rituals...weddings, funerals, graduations...I absolutely hate the pressure to 'perform' according to the norm at these kinds of events. for instance, the last several wakes i've had to go to, i just could not make...
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    Dancing...at Weddings

    I went to a very significant (in the course of my life) wedding this past week...long story short, I absolutely could not make myself dance - because I was supposed to. I was one of VERY few people not joining in, but I just couldn't get into it. Other times it's not a problem for me and I can...
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    Death and SA

    I'm interested to know how all of you deal with the deaths of loved ones. I've lost a lot of my family and way too many friends and I just recently had another death in the family. I think being surrounded by so much death my whole life has contributed a lot to my SA. After someone passes away I...
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    Do you avoid goodbyes?

    I avoid goodbyes with even my friends and family - especially goodbye hugs. I hate the whole goodbye smalltalk, I feel like I never really know what to say, it's always awkward for me unless I can make a quick getaway. I don't know when this started but it's definitely a recent thing. I used to...
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    some weird 60's conceptual art that makes me happy

    So, everybody knows who Yoko Ono is, but most people don't know that long before she met John Lennon she was already a really influential and completely brilliant conceptual artist. She did/does a lot of text pieces called Instruction Pieces, which somehow make me feel so much better sometimes...
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    Best. Tuesday. Ever.

    Today was the best day I've had with my SA in months! :D:D:D I had an important meeting at work today with some people I've never met before and I ACTUALLY spoke up - and smiled! lol might sound ridiculous but I have such a hard time just relaxing enough to smile when I'm at work. It was also...
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    Fear of Insanity...

    I've gotten to the point of being so high strung and constantly anxious that I actually doubt my sensory perceptions on a regular basis. I feel like my anxiety has caused my brain to function so abnormally and I zone out so much sometimes, being stuck in my own little world, that i repeatedly...
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    Do people treat you differrently in a group vs. one on one?

    Some people I know are like this and it really pisses me off. One friend of mine is totally normal when it's just the two of us but if even one other person is with us she becomes bitchy and combative over the smallest things, like she has this weird public persona she has to uphold. Anyone else...
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    Music Story Thread

    so this is something i do with a friend of mine via email. it's like the story thread, only with songs. one person posts a song and the next person posts a song that it makes them think of or something that is in some way, shape, or form connected...so here's mine, it's how i'm feeling right...
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    High School Hell

    Was high school complete and total hell for you? Do you attribute your SA to experiences you had then? High school was the worst time of my life. I had major depression, SA, hurt myself, attempted suicide and was locked up in an institution. I drank, did drugs and hung out with all the wrong...
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    Don't open the door

    Why is that what races through my head whenever someone knocks on my door?! It's pretty sad, but I have a minor panic attack EVERY time I hear knocking, even if it's on a door down the hall...I've only actually answered my door once when I wasn't expecting someone, since I've lived...
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    Fear of airport security

    Anyone else have a fear of airport security? I have to fly in two weeks and I'm totally ok with the actual flying itself, in fact I really enjoy it, I'm just completely TERRIFIED of being in the airport and going through security...the last time I flew I was 'randomly selected' for a hardcore...
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    the replyless thread

    why is it that people feel the need to constantly express their opinions about things of no consequence when it will serve no purpose other than to offend someone? is it really necessary to continually blurt out negative statements just because you can? am i the only person who keeps my thoughts...
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    a song for you

    YouTube - All I Really Want To Do (Post Productions)
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    SPW Astrologer

    We need one. It would make my day to read a daily SPW horoscope. Any SA astrologers out there?
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    Lonely in NYC

    Am I the only person with SA in nyc? Probably, considering there are way too many people here...
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