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    Privileged

    This is kinda long, but I feel the need to get this out there. It's something that I've observed about myself for a while now, and these are just some thoughts I have on that observation. Sometimes I think that I shouldn’t be complaining, that I should just shut up and count my blessings...
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    Are you picky?

    When it comes to choosing someone to date, are you picky at all? Are there certain criteria (physical and/or personality) that you find most of the sex you're attracted to lacking? If someone asks you out, do you end up turning them down because they are not your type? I would say that, yes, I...
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    How to get past anger toward an ex

    This is something that's been really bringing me down since some time back in October (well, I felt it a bit before, but it came full force in early to mid-October). I can't seem to go one day without feelings of hatred and resentment towards my ex popping up. They can pop up any time, anywhere...
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    Rosenburg's Self-Esteem Scale

    Rosenberg's Self-Esteem Scale I figured I'd share this. My score was 17, which is in the normal range, though it's just 2 points shy of being low. Guess I really do have "middle ground self-esteem."
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    this_portrait's Random Thoughts

    Portrait of a _portrait I figured I'd start one of these, just for the hell of it, and to see what others think of the things that come to my mind as well. I'll start by posting a journal entry I wrote earlier. Lately I’ve been asking myself the question, “What is a real friend?” I’ve been...
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    Calling people by their names

    Does anyone feel awkward doing this? I know it SHOULDN'T be, but for some reason I've always had a hard time addressing people by their names (or title, for that matter). I don't know if the people I'm trying to talk to notice that or what (considering some of them do address me by my name)...
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    Fear of being alone

    I'm not sure if I've secretly always had this fear, or if it's a recent development. I used to enjoy being alone, but not anymore. I can't stand it. I'm afraid of being alone for the rest of my life. As painful as it can be to interact with people much of the time, I'd rather go through the...
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    I want to go to the gym...

    ... but I'm too embarrassed. I've never taken advantage of my school's facilities, and this is my 4th and final year here. I've been wanting to get toned and fit, but I find it boring to work out at home. I'd go jogging/walking, but the weather is starting to get cold now. That leaves the gym...
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    Are anti-anxiety meds REALLY addictive?

    Title kinda says all. I'm just curious to know if they are, in your experiences (for those of you who have taken or currently do take them).
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    I hate this.

    Right now, I'm feeling really alone. Nowadays I can't STAND feeling (or really even being) alone. I wanna do things with people (and a relationship would be even better). I'm tired of sitting by myself in my apartment, staring at the ceiling or browsing the web. I want company so bad, I'd almost...
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    Twirling hair in a public setting

    I have a few nervous habits, but I'd say the one I do most is twirling my hair when I'm in a public setting (or if I'm a little anxious in any setting). Seems like it drives people up the wall if you're giving a presentation or speech in front of a class (though I have no clue why). I've also...
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    No Desire to Make Friends in My Final Year of School

    Finally, I'm in my last year of school. I'm really looking forward to graduating in May and utilizing the techniques I've learned in a future job(s). I haven't really made very many friends, though. I've had mostly acquaintances come and go over the past 3 years here. The only person I've met...
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    Phenibut

    Has anyone tried this stuff? For those who don't know what it is, it's basically a benzo you don't need a prescription for, it's cheap (I got like a big thing of it for about $40), but it's not as strong as a prescription benzo, and it comes in the form of a white powder that you can either put...
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    "You need to love yourself before others can love you."

    Am I the only one who really despises that phrase? I used to try living up to it, don't get me wrong... But nowadays, I just think it's complete b/s. There are things I like about myself and wouldn't change for anything, but there are also a few things that I just can't stand about myself, but...
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    How long (on average) does it take to get over a past relationship?

    Hello, all. I used to be pretty active on here, then stopped coming around for a long while. I've been lurking a bit lately, and I feel more comfortable asking this question on here than on the other SA forum I'm a member on. Out of curiosity, how long, on average, do you guys think it takes...
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    Small Talk

    Not sure about the rest of you, but lately small talk makes me feel happy/giddy inside after I actually do it. I feel like a complete dork for feeling that way, considering I never used to be much of a fan of it. Gotta start somewhere, though, right? I've also found that small talk isn't as...
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    Anyone else feel this way?

    Usually, I fantasize about having a boyfriend and whatnot, and it normally brings me happiness whenever I fantasize. I could usually fantasize all day and I would think it brings me more satisfaction than the real thing ever could. However, lately I'm finding that I can't fantasize without...
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    I can't take it anymore.

    I'm calling my therapist tomorrow right after I finish my first exam. I can't go on like this anymore. I'm tired of constantly being ignored by virtually everyone. I'm sad that I seem to lack friends lately. I'm sick of being in the dating game when I have virtually no f*cking clue what I'm...
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    First kiss (and more). . .

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    I'm such a screw-up. =(

    So I'm a second-year uni student, and I was just informed that my roommate is moving out tomorrow. The reason? Well, let's just say that she feels as if there's a negative energy in the room, and that she thinks it would be better for her if she didn't have to be around it. She basically...
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